I can't put it into words that easily
Of how I'm feeling right now
One thing is feel is silly
Another part wants to know how
I want to be told why I'm this way
I want to learn why I feel like this
How do people see this in my fate
When all I feel is dissed
I tell myself I'm not good enough
Because even if I am good
If I don't reach my goals, it's rough
So I don't feel like I should
I don't feel like I should tell
Me that I'm doing well
I don't feel like I can say
That I look and feel great today
Because once I get that one comment
Once I get that one word
It feels much better for it to relevant
Than for it to be absurd
I know I'm probably not making much sense
So let me try to put on a new lense
I tell myself "you'll never make" it
So when I make it I feel great
Cause when I say that I'll make it
And then I don't, myself I hate
And when I say I'll get through
And I actually somehow do
It doesn't feel as good
As it probably should
It feels better when your expectations are exceeded
Than when they're only met
And I know that this thought process isn't needed
But that's what I always forget
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