SAVE ME ™ | TAEKOOK

fifteen

it was real.

it had been a little over a month since taehyung could bring himself to leave his room. he'd read every letter  at least one hundred times,

and even though jungkook told him it wasn't his fault, in a way it was.

if only he'd held jungkook closer instead of pushing him away, kissed him back instead of calling him a faggot.

jungkook never deserved how badly he was treated by the person he loved. how could taehyung have been so oblivious.

thinking back it makes sense, taehyung always only thought of it as a friendly gesture.

he felt like an idiot.

it was real, too real, he just wished he could go back and do things differently but he knew it was impossible.

and that fact alone was eating away at him on the inside.

jungkook died believing taehyung didn't love him, why didn't he just hug the younger boy and tell him the truth?

the same questions running through his head, the dark thoughts, him being the reason alone why jungkook killed himself.

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9/01

2:34 am

my dearest bun,

today is your birthday

happy birthday bunny

if you were still here with me i'd hold you as close as ever

but you're not here,
it's crazy without you bunny

i know it's too late to say this but i love you too

i feel so horrible

it took me until it was too late to accept that

i hope you can forgive me,
my sweet bunny

i understand what you meant when you said you didn't think anyone would understand

because without you i understand

you'd say it wasn't my fault but i know it was bunny

i shouldn't have been so mean

you're an angel, you didn't deserve that treatment

eun and i broke up
she understood

bunny i wish you were still with me

it hurts so bad

maybe this really is what i deserve

but i still want you

and my intentions are to meet with you again on the other side bunny

someday

sooner rather than later

i love you jeon jungkook.