GAJONG : AMSAL'S SEQUEL

Bound

Makena's POV

"I'm falling out of love with myself..." I say quietly

He stops what he was doing and looks at me.

"You're falling out of love with yourself?" He questions

"Yes, but I also I feel like I'm falling out of love with you."

It's better to just get everything off my chest.

"The fuck do you mean you're falling out of love with me?!" He asks and gets up

"I-It's hard to explain, some days I wake up and feel like there's no connection between us. I have started hating the way my body looks. So I started pushing you away, I didn't want you seeing my body. When you try to touch me it makes me angry...so angry. I feel like you wouldn't want me if you see how much I've gained." I found myself tearing up because I have kept this stuff bottled in.

"Everything you do starts to piss me off. I especially hate it when you criticize what I'm eating and how much. I even persuaded myself that you don't love me anymore because I've gotten so big. So I thought maybe it's okay that I feel like I don't love him anymore because he doesn't love me. But, just now...you proved that you still love me and I was wrong." I say quietly, I look up at him and he was just staring at me blankly

"Can you say something?" I ask

"What do you want me to say?" He sounds pissed

"Anything?" I reply

"You want to throw away our marriage just because you are insecure of your fucking body? You've let this insecurity dictate how you feel about me and that's some bullshit. Makena, I have been nothing but good to you. I've been patient and caring even when you push me away. My intentions have always been pure. You piss me off too but that doesn't make me start to think I'm falling out of love with you. I mean we have a child together and you're carrying our second one. I wouldn't want a family with you if I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with you. No matter you're fucking size!" He rants

"I know, I just- I can't help the way I feel. I don't even feel like I'm myself anymore." I cry

He angrily puts on his shirt and grabs his phone.

He walks out the bedroom and I soon hear keys.

I quickly walk out to see where he was.

"Where are you going?" I ask

"Why does it matter? You don't love me anymore." He slips his shoes on and I couldn't even move.

"Tell Kylo I love him." He says and walks out.

I made no attempt to stop him. Did I not really care? Fuck. The way he looked at me, he was so disappointed.

Young-soo has never left me before...not when he was angry

His words looped through my mind, over and over again.

You've let this insecurity dictate how you feel about me and that's some bullshit.

He was right, I gave my insecurity so much power. It was consuming me and it took Young-Soo leaving to realize that.