Loco | Paul Lahote | Book Two

Quil

Rebecca went home after staying for a coffee, we talked for awhile just catching up but eventually she had to go see Uncle Billy.
I didn't bother waking Paul up, I just threw on one of his flannelette shirts & a pair of tights with some combat boots, out of the clothes I left here & never bothered to pick back up. I walked down the dirt road & headed toward Sam & Emily's place, Rebecca said Quil & the guys were there earlier, I was hoping I'd still catch them.
I had plenty of time to think on my walk, I'd let the stress of the supernatural over take me because Bella was almost injured. It was all fine & dandy before that & now I had three big claw marks across my throat forever & I couldn't bare to think what this was all doing to Charlie, he probably thought his daughters were walking infomercials on how to die in the woods.
I shook my head though because this was where I was meant to be, with my family, standing by Paul & if I was honest I've never felt so at home.
I was done denying who I am & my world within a world, this is who I was meant to be scars, giant dogs, clutsy sister & all.
I finally reached Sam's house but I didn't walk down the driveway, a bundle of emotions swirled within my stomach I let out a long slow breath through my mouth as I looked at the large cabin & it's beautiful gardens. They already knew I was here no doubt & they probably knew Paul & I were back together thanks to the bond so I don't know why I didn't move.
I didn't have to though because the boys ran outside to greet me Jacob cleared the porch stairs with one step & ran over to me grabbing me & pulling me into his chest "welcome home, Loca." he whispered into my ear before stepping back, Embry scooped me up & spun me around.
"we missed you." he said as he placed a kiss on my forehead & put me back on the flats of my feet, Jared smiled as he fist pumped me "finally-" he said rolling his eyes "now this lot will stop whining." he said playfully.
"oh yeah because you didn't miss her at all." Embry said punching his arm.
Jared chuckled & shrugged his shoulders stepping aside to let Sam past, I swollowed hard my smile dropping instantly.
We had grown so close Sam & I he became like a big brother to me & for some reason in that moment I felt as if I had ruined that, as if I had disappointed him. My cheeks grew hot as I felt his eyes bearing into me, I let out a shaky breath & looked up at him, biting my lip to hold back the tears that built up within my chest "welcome, home Becka." he said, I nodded as he to pulled me into his solid warm chest & hugged me tight, I returned his hug for a moment before we broke apart.
I sniffed & smiled "Ew emotions." I said shaking my body, I earnt a few chuckles from that "I came to see Quil." I said looking around "where is he?" I asked curiously.
The guys looked at the floor before Sam piped up "he's in the house, he doesn't want to see you." Sam said.
I nodded & clicked my tongue "well that's simply not going to do, tell him to sack up & come see me." I said stubbornly.
Sam shook his head "you can't back him into a corner, Becka if he gets to upset-" I shook my head.
"Sam, let me see my goddamn brother. He is upset, he is probably scared of any human because of his new strength, he may have you guys but he needs me & I need him at this point, please." I looked up at Sam & into his eyes, his features were unwavering.
We stood like that for a moment starring each other down, he may have been the alpha of the pack but he wasn't about to tell me what to do.
"Sam." Emily called him, he turned looking over his shoulder & I looked around him to see Quil, standing at the bottom of the stairs he was digging his toes into the wet dirt beneath him not once looking up from the ground as he spoke.
"Becka, I don't want to hurt you." he said, his voice sounded small & pained.
"you won't-" I began but he shook his head & stopped my protests.
"but I almost did & then Paul-" he swollowed shaking his head "Paul would never have hurt you if I didn't turn." he said his voice growing angry, he snapped his head up & looked directly at my throat, the angry white lines that stood out against my skin made him wince. He took a deep breath in as tears filled his eyes "that's on me."
I stomped my foot & rolled my eyes angrily pointing my finger at him "would you lot shut up! You all feel so sorry for yourselves, oh I'm a monster-" I mocked sarcastically "I could hurt you, Becka-" I huffed "please I could still kick all your assets at the same time, if I'm still here why do you push me away? You think you all need to protect me, well guess what? I'm not afraid of the big bad wolf." I asked "I'm sick of being pushed away & pushing you away, you guys are my family. If that's means I'm at risk so be it but I can't keep being without you guys, you're literally sewen into the fabric of my being. I don't know what I'd do without you in my life."
Quil began to nod slowly, it was barely noticeable but since I was glaring at him I saw the slight movement. He frowned as he opened his mouth & shut it again licking his lips as he tried to think of an argument but instead he just nodded & looked up at me again with a shy grin "you still think you can kick my ass?" he asked scratching the back of his neck.
I grinned at him "without a doubt." I said confidently.
He began to walk to me but I rushed over to him & bundled him up in my arms "this isn't your fault Quil, you're finally where your supposed to be. Never feel bad about that." I said before pushing his head down & rubbing my knuckles in his hair, he squirmed out of my grasp & laughed.
"Muffins are ready." Emily called from the door, I looked over to see her placing a plate on the table with a tower of her blueberry chocolate muffins stacked proudly on top.
We all began toward the house instinctively & sat down at the table, we laughed & talked for a while.
I looked around at the little gathering as they chatted amongst each other, some talking over one another but all with grins & I smiled, it felt good to be home.
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