Sister's girlfriend (Jenlisa x Lisoo)

Ch. 17

"LISA OH MY GOD!" Seulgi, Chaeng, and Jennie saw Lisa punching the wall non stop. They all run to stop Lisa but she pushed them away

"Leave me the fuck alone!" Still punching the wall

"No Lisa! We won't leave you, please stop" Jennie cried. Lisa faced her

"I don't need you okay? I don't fucking need you! No leave me alone!" As Jennie heard that her heart shattered into million pieces as her tears slowly falling down.

"LISA!" Seulgi shouted "We're just trying to help you! Specially Jennie!" Lisa laughed sarcasticly

"Well you're not! You're making things worse! Stop helping me because I don't need you! I don't fucking need your help! Now leave me the fuck alone!"

"No Lisa, we won't leave you here" Chaeng said crying

"No one will understand how hurt I am Chaeyoung! No one will understand how much I miss her! Chaeng do you know how much I want to forget her? I did, But I can't. Thinking about her, is killing me! But I can't do nothing! All I can see is her! In my room, in school, in my car, everywhere! All I can see is her, that's how much I miss her! Now tell me how can you help me?!" Jennie wiped her tears and slapped Lisa so hard. Their friends were surprised

"Because you don't want us to help you! Because you don't want to help yourself! You keep on pushing us away! You keep on telling us that you don't need us, me! I know, you don't because all you need is my sister who's not even existing anymore. I understand that you love and miss her, so do I? She's my sister and I fucking miss being with her Lisa! But I didn't let my emotion eat me! But you?! You're destroying yourself! I hate to see you like this Lis! If I can only take that pain away I will do it" She took a deep breath

"I can't take your pain away, I can't wipe away the pain in your heart, I can only wipe your tears. Because I'm not my sister! I'm not her! I'm not the one who you love! I'm not the one you want to see! Because all you think about is her! I realised one thing Lisa, you will never see me as more than just a friend. Because it's always my sister right?" She laughed sarcasticly

"I wish I was the one who died! I wish I was her. I wish. I wish you can still be with her, because I hate to see you like this Lisa! I'd rather die just to see you happy than to live seeing you like this! That's how much I love you Lisa!" Chaeng and Seulgi just listening to them sadly.

"Y...you love me?" Lisa caught off guard

"Yes Lisa I love you! So bad! I keep this for fucking 3 years, 3 fucking years Lisa! I suffered a lot! I hate myself for loving the wrong person! I kept believing that you are the right person but I'm not just in time. But I was wrong, I'm loving the wrong person! I thought you'll see me as more than just a friend, I thought you will learn to love me. But I thought wrong" She shook her head while her tears falling down to her face "You will never see me Lisa"

"I promised to myself and to my sister that I will always be there no matter what happen. But I guess I can't hold my promises anymore. I'm tired Lisa. I'm tired trying to steal your attention, trying everything Lisa! Funny right? I keep on pushing myself to you but you? You keep on pushing me away"

"But don't worry Lisa, you don't have to push me anymore. I know my limitation. I reached it already. I hate to say this but I have to and I need to" She turned around "Goodbye" She walked out the door.

Seulgi and Chaeng sighed heavily while Lisa standing blankly. Seulgi signal to follow Jennie. As Chaeng left the room Seulgi assist Lisa to sit down

"It's okay it's okay. Come on" She rubbed her back

"I'm a coward Sulg. I'm a coward" She whispered. Seulgi pulled her into a hug

"No you're not. You're just hurt as her"

"She hates me Sulg, she hates me now" Seulgi shook her head

"No, she's just hurt Lis. Come on, I will clean your hand. Jeeeez Lisa! Are you trying to kill yourself? Damn you're such a careless" Seulgi held her fists

"Sulg, it's not that I can't see her. I'm afraid" Seulgi eyes widened.

"W...what are you saying?"

"I don't know Sulg. But I think I started to like her since I don't know...Ugh! She's not hard to love her Sulg. But it's wrong. She's Jennie my girlfriend's sister. Jisoo knows it, I always tell her that I love her"

"WHAT?!"

"No no! It's not what you think it is. I'm saying that I always tell her how I like her sister like in my dreams. She's always visiting me Sulg. But when I told her that, she's smiling but I don't know I feel like she's not happy with it. Sulg I don't know anymore. I fucked up!" Seulgi massage her temple

"Lis, listen. If you love her, tell her before it's too late. Forget about the conflict or fear. What is truly ridiculous is passing up on an opportunity to tell Jennie that your heart invested in her" Seulgi words really hit her but

"I don't know Sulg. I don't know. I really don't. I need to think first. I need to find myself first. Everything is fast, I mean it's just a year ago...I'm was with Jisoo, then left me then this? I don't know Sulg" Seulgi kissed lisa's forehead.

"I understand you Lis. But always remember that we're here for you okay? We love you so much Lis. We hate to see you like this. We want our Limario back. We miss you so bad" Lisa hugged her as she started to cry

"I'm so sorry Sulg, sorry for pushing you all away when all you did is to help me. I'm sorry, I let my emotion ate me. Jennie is right. I fucked up" Seulgi smile weakly

"You don't have to say sorry. We're family here Lis. We understand your situation, specially Jennie"

"She doesn't deserve me Sulg"

"I know, but please do something what Jennie really deserved" She pat her shoulder

"I'll think about that first Sulg. Can you leave me alone first?" She asked gentle not to sound rude.

"Yeah sure. But let me clean your fist first" Lisa smiled.