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Bun 🐰💕
JUNGKOOK
happy birthday my love ❤️
JUNGKOOK
I know you're not awake yet but don't worry, thats the point
JUNGKOOK
I wanted you to wake up to a long ass list of all the things I love about you
JUNGKOOK
you deserve to wake up and have a whole novel at your feet, telling you how perfect you are
JUNGKOOK
you deserve it after everything you've gone through
JUNGKOOK
go ahead and relax babe, let me show you how amazing you are, okay?
JUNGKOOK
allow me to start with our love story
JUNGKOOK
I know it's a crazy, angsty and frustration filled but that fact alone is what I love so much about it; we worked hard to get here and im most proud of what we have
JUNGKOOK
I remember the day we first met like my own sister
JUNGKOOK
I was drunk out of my mind and yet I STILL knew you were the most beautiful thing ive ever seen
JUNGKOOK
it drove me insane how pretty you were, ive never once seen a boy look so fucking stunning before
JUNGKOOK
definitely not enough to make me forget about girls when he was around
JUNGKOOK
before I get more into it, im really sorry for ever comparing you to one baby..
JUNGKOOK
that wasn't right of me, it was disgusting to say I only found you pretty because you "looked like a girl"
JUNGKOOK
I want you to know that that's not even true, I lied. I was a massive coward, I couldn't handle the fact that I found a boy so attractive yet
JUNGKOOK
that's why I came up with excuses to make me feel better
JUNGKOOK
at the time, yeah, they did
JUNGKOOK
im not excusing my actions, it doesn't matter if it aided my feelings at the time, it was still wrong of me
JUNGKOOK
I regret doing that to you everyday of my life
JUNGKOOK
as I look back at it now I can't even be mad at you for thinking and doing the things you did
JUNGKOOK
you thought I only wanted you for your body
JUNGKOOK
it wasn't unreasonable for you to think that based off my past and im so sorry for that babe
JUNGKOOK
as our friendship officially started building, I got to meet the real you though
JUNGKOOK
I picked up on how giggly you are, how kind you are, how loving, patient, and affectionate you are
JUNGKOOK
I think it's definitely a good thing that I was your friend first
JUNGKOOK
although I was clearly drawn to your body, learning and discovering all these things about your personality before we got into anything serious was without a doubt the best decision
JUNGKOOK
I wasn't in any mindset to accept the fact that I wasn't straight anymore at the time
JUNGKOOK
had I made it solely a body attraction like I did with women, I would've ended up hurting you
JUNGKOOK
that's the last thing I ever would've wanted
JUNGKOOK
even though I went crazy and felt all sorts of things when trying to come to terms with you making me feel things I never have before.. I knew it meant something
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Emasculate | Jikook ✓
Fanfiction❝ This is your decision baby, just know that you won't be alone this time. ❞ Almost two years later and pretty boys still hold deeper secrets than one would think. Sequel to: Effeminate #completed ________________ written!au | media!au | nsfw! [W...
