The Dignified Heartbreaker

TDH ~ 16

TDH ~ XVI

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Cleopatra

"What?"

Halos maningkit ang kanyang mga mata habang nakatitig ng matiim sa akin.

There was an unbelievable look in his face. An emotion far from what I expected from him.

Simula nang sunod-sunod na ang mga nangyayari sa kanya ay hindi na ako matahimik. Sometimes I woke up at night dreaming that he's dead and I can't take it. Seeing him hurt in that dream, lifeless or bloody, made me unable to sleep.

I've been loving him since I learned what its like to love someone else aside from my family. I've been loving and hating him since time immemorial. I've been pushing myself and pulling away from him for a long time now.

It's really not easy loving someone only to be rejected for a lot of times. But with Odyssey, it seems like I am able to endure every rejection and dislikes from him.

"Cleopatra? Can you hear yourself?" Muli niyang tanong.

Tila pinipigilan niyang magbigay ng higit pang emosyon.

But I just stared at his handsome face, memorizing every bit of it.

Hindi ko alam kung may panahon bang nagkagusto ako sa ibang lalaki. Wala yatang nangyaring ganoon. Wala yatang panahon na hindi siya ang naging crush ko.

Sometimes, I am lost in thinking that what if I like someone else? What if I tried to give my affection to someone that could love me back? I am not hard to like. Maganda ako. I know that. It's really hypocrite of me to say na hindi kung nakikita ko naman sa salamin ang repleksiyon ko.

I have suitors, marami sila, siyempre. Kahit hindi ako pinagpala sa height, pinagpala naman ang mukha ko.

But really, if I did love someone else, maybe I have my own family now. Siguro ngayon may mga anak na kami. Pero there's this part of me that's so into Odyssey. That everytime I think of myself being with some other man, it's like I won't be happy.

I feel so incomplete.

Really, it's hard loving a human stone.

At ngayong maraming masamang nangyayari sa kanya, I just can't stand to wait and do nothing. I can't take it.

Patuloy lang siyang nakatitig sa akin ng hindi makapaniwala. There's some glint in his eyes that I can't fathom like always.

"This is the only way.." I said almost desperately.

"Do you know what you're saying, Cleopatra?" Muli ay may diin ang boses niya pagkabigkas sa pangalan ko.

Bahagya niyang inilapit ang mukha niya sa akin habang nakaupo ako sa tapat ng table niya.

I tried to disregard my racing heartbeat since I need to concentrate.

Cleo, concentrate!

Ayaw kong mawala sa naiisip ko. Delikado talaga kapag ganito siya kalapit sa akin!

He have no idea how many times I tried holding back myself not to pull him close to me. I've mustered all my strength just to stay that way, just to stay in a statuelike position.

"I've already think this through, Odyssey! It's for you!"

Bakit kasi hindi niya iyon makita?

Nakakuyom na ang kamay ko sa gilid. Pinipigilan ko ang frustration ko.

Pabagsak siyang sumandig sa kanyang swivel chair.

"How about you? Haven't you thought about yourself, Cleopatra? You're asking me to marry you?" He scoffed.