The Dignified Heartbreaker

TDH ~ 23

TDH ~ XXIII

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Cleopatra

"Ssshhhh.." Pag-alo niya sa akin.

Ilang minuto na rin akong ganito. My tears won't just stop falling no matter how hard I tried to.

I am enveloped in between his broad and lean arms. Sobrang bango niya.

He caressed my back soothingly. It feels so damn good to be comforted by him.

I never thought this day would come. That I'll be here in his arms, being strongly held by him while crying.

I used to be a tough girl, an independent woman who loves to travel. I used to think I don't cry easily. How come my life turned 360 degrees around? And now, I'm being a crybaby!

"Should I call a doctor?" He whispered gently that it soothes my soul.

Umiling iling ako habang sumisinghot. Nanghihinayang man ay kumalas ako mula sa pagkakayakap sa kanya.

At least naka-tsansing.

"N-No need." Sumisigok kong saad.

Shit! May mga marka na tuloy ng luha ko ang tshirt niya. I feel so guilty.

Tumango siya, nananantiya ang tingin.

He lifted his hands and wiped the tears left in my cheeks.

Hindi ako sanay na ganito siya sa akin. If he continued acting like this.. mas lalala pa ang pagkagusto ko sa kanya. Kung may mas ikakagrabe pa nga iyon. Hindi na ako makakaahon pa.

I heaved a sigh. There's no escape from this feeling.

"Bukas na lang tayo mag-usap." His eyes look careful.

I shook my head. "No. I'm okay now.. We need to talk. Gusto kong malinawan ngayon."

I took up the courage to say that. Ayoko nang patagalin pa ito. I want to know what he's thinking. It's long overdue already.

Ilang araw na ang nakakalipas simula nang bigyan niya ako ng malabong sagot. I guess we need this to clarify everything. Para kong sakali mang umatras siya sa plano, mas mabibigyan ako ng panahon na matanggap iyon.

He pursed his lips. His eyes became hooded as he beheld mine.

"Fire away your questions."

"I thought you're the one going to talk!"

What the heck? Akala ko pa naman siya itong mauunang may sasabihin. Ako pa rin pala?

I thought he's doing good at communicating now!

"You don't want to?" He raised his thick brow.

Napairap ako. Bwisit!

I thought we're getting better but he's too moody.

"Oo na!" angil ko. I exhaled a deep breath, trying to brace myself.

Hindi ko kasi maiwasang kabahan. Ngayon lang yata kami nagkaroon ng pagkakataong mag-usap ng ganito. And knowing that we're inside my room.. makes me more nervous.

But this chance is one in a million! Even the reporters are not easily given this chance by Odyssey. I'm going to grabe this opportunity.

"About the fake marriage.. Are you really agreeing?" direct to the point kong tanong.

I can feel my heartbeat hammered in my chest. Panay rin ang paglalaro ko sa mga kamay ko dahil sa tensyon.

I bit my bottom lip while waiting for his answer.