This chapter has a self harm part in it, I'm just warning you ahead of time. I let you know right before that part comes just in case you don't want to read it.
Steve's POV
We arrive at my place and as usual my drunk dad isn't here, which is good. We go to my room and as soon as we walk in Soda goes straight to the bed and lays face first into the pillows. I join him but not as dramatically.
"Stevieeeeeeee" he groans
"Yeah, love?"
"What are we gonna do? I'm never gonna be able to go back there."
"Then you can just stay here with me."
"But what about your dad? I can't stay here."
"Fuck my dad, he's never here anyways. Plus he probably won't even notice that you're here."
"But if he does then he'll beat the shit out of you and I don't want that happening Steve!" He says concerned
"It won't happen my love so there's no need to worry." I assure him
"Ok fine, but if he does find out and beats you then I won't hesitate to beat the shit out of him."
"Ok Soda, whatever you say." I say jokingly
"I'm serious Steve!" He says defensively
"Ok." I say
"Whatever, I'm going to sleep." He says annoyed
"Hey I'm sorry alright?"
He sighs "I am too. I just don't want our relationship getting you hurt."
"I won't get hurt, I promise. I love you." I tell him
"I love you too Stevie." He says as he kisses me softly and wraps his arms around me
"Hey, Soda?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you promise me that you won't get hurt either?"
"Yes of course Steve." He tells me
I kissed him on the nose than I slowly fall asleep.
Okay if you don't want to read the self harm part than skip this part
Soda's POV
Steve slowly fell I asleep but I just couldn't. No matter how much I tried too sleep I couldn't. I hate this so much. I hate myself so much, I'm so pathetic and weak, why am I like this?
My eyes start to tear up as I'm thinking about all of these things so I sit up. I start to get up and go to the bathroom but I hear Steve.
"Hey where are you going love?" He asks
"Oh I was just going to the bathroom."
"Ok, wake me up if you need anything."
"I will." I say as I walk out of Steve's room and go to the kitchen. I search around until I found a knife and than I walked to the bathroom. I enter the bathroom and lock the door. I sit in the bathroom and debate for about 15 minutes on if I want to do this. I hold the knife to my arm and make a deep cut and then I make two more but not as deep. I clean up my cuts and than the knife. I walk back to Steve's room and lightly tap on him to wake him up.
"Stevie?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you have a hoodie I could borrow? I'm cold."
I lie to him
"Yeah I'll get you one." He gets up and rummages through his draws and finally found a hoodie
"Here ya go baby." He hands it to me
"Thank you Steve." I quickly put it on so he doesn't notice my cuts and I take his hand and pull him back into bed with me. We both lay down and I put my arms around him. We stay like that for who knows how long and I eventually fall asleep.
Okay that's the end up the self harm part, sorry guys
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Steve's POV
It's the next morning and I decide to wake up early and make breakfast for Soda. I get out everything I need and make eggs, bacon, and pancakes. I set the table with the food on the plates and I go to wake up Soda when I see him walking out of my room.
"Hello sunshine!" I say to Soda
"Hi Stevie! Why are you up?" He sounds confused
"Well I wanted to make you breakfast love." I tell him
"Oh. Uh I'm not actually hungry Steve...." he rubs the back of his neck
"Not even a little? Come on just have a couple bites." I say as I pull him towards the table a little
He slaps my hand away "No really I'm fine Steve." He says frustrated
"Soda you can't keep doing this! You've been avoiding food for awhile now, you need to eat something. A couple snacks a day won't do it!" I tell him
"Steve stop it, I'm fine!! You need to stop babysitting me, I'm not a 5 year old!!" He raises he voice
"I just want you to eat a bite, just one bite please?"
"Fine one bite, but that's all!" He takes a bite of the bacon and chews it "There, are you happy now?"
"Yes. Thank you." I kiss him on the cheek and smile but he doesn't smile back so I start to panic
"What's wrong love? Are you ok?" I say concerned
"It's nothing Steve don't worry..."
" I know that somethings wrong, why don't you just tell me? You can talk to me about anything Soda, I hope you know that."
"Fine," he pauses for a second and sighs "I feel like I-I'm not good enough for you, I'm too weak,I m-mean I can barely eat food. Something's wrong with me Steve, I f-feel useless and saying all of this makes me feel so pathetic. So why would you wanna be with someone like me?" He said as his eyes watered
"Anyone would be lucky to be in a relationship with a person like you. I love you so much Sodapop, I love every second I spend with you. Whatever you're going through, we can get through it, together." I assure him
"I hate feeling this way, I hate crying for pathetic reasons Steve. I'm just so sad but I don't know why because you make me so happy." He explains to me as I wipe his tears away.
"Listen baby everything is gonna be ok." I kissed him passionately on the lips to show him that I mean what I said. He looks up at me and smiles.
"There's that smile I've been waiting for." He laughs
"Oh shut it." I laugh at him
"I love you so much love." I kiss him on the cheek
" I love you more Stevie."
"Well I love you more than most." I tell him. He gasps
"Well guess what."
"What?"
"I love you more than you love me."
"Awe I feel so loved Sodapop!"
"Good I'm glad!" He smiles
And that's the end of chapter 12! I hope you enjoyed it. Sorry for the really depressing parts, things will get better I promise! Also sorry if there's any typos, I got really lazy while writing this. I hope you have an amazing day/night and stay alert for the next chapter.
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FanfictionEver since grade school Sodapop Curtis couldn't stop thinking about Steve Randle. All he ever wants to do is kiss him but he can't because liking boys isn't exactly a good thing, at least that's what Soda was told. I don't own any of these character...
