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Chapter 11

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Lotus' pov

"Explain what?!"

There was silence.
Not the type of silence that's awkward. No...

The type to drive two ex lovers mad.

"Look you little wonderful piece of fire-y shit, my bad I did stuff to you. Cheating was in the past but the only damn reason I did it was because they were at least prettier and wanted to do it instead of saying 'fuck you I'm tired' when you were on your ass all day, 'I hate you! I wish you'd just stop trying! You sex deprived maniac!' you were always the one wanting to watch garbage horny movies and buying shit. What a waste of time huh?!"
"Excuse me?!"
"Shit."
"Yeah damn right 'shit'!"
We just kept arguing but we both became sick of it and I jumped back in the car. I slammed my head on the steering wheel and let the honking continue.

"Awww Lotus are you not liking what your future came to be?"

The little nagging voice in my head said.
"Mom, won't the broth go bad?"
"Wow look at that! Your son is more concerned on the fucking broth than you! Really gets it from his grandfather and dad doesn't the little sport!?"
I'm sure reaper and rurik both cared about me... Shut up shut up.
"Mom? I think people are judging us"
"Oh look the whiny one is crying! "
"Jesus will that bitch shut up their pathetic face honk thing?"
"What a terrible mother."
"Piece of shit"
"You'll never be like your parents."
"Die alone!"
"Disappointment."
"You should stop trying honey"
"Settle like everyone else in this shit hole."
"What a shit show of a family."
I can't breathe. God help me.
My soul is racing way too fast.
Help. Help. Help.
It was right I was sobbing at the seems.

"Shut up! Shut up! SHUT UP! Just get out of my head! " I thought-yelled
It shut up, but it was still there. They all were still there. I started driving after my small panic attack.
I entered the house. Pastel followed behind me. It wasn't dinner so I just put the items away and simply went to my room. I flopped against the door. The voice started screaming. They all started screaming. Everyone who ever said anything to me were screaming an unholy harmony orchestra of suffering, insecurity and sorrow. Not to include built up rage.
SHUT UP SHUT UP! Get out of my head! Get out get out get out get out get out get out get out get out get out get out get out get out get out get out get out! I'll do anything! I give up! Ill stop trying.... I give up.

I felt a sharp pain in my torso area.

Please just get out.

I opened my eyes.

A razor sharp knife stabbed directly next to my soul.

I past out. All I could see was the door pushing towards the door and heavy boots speed walk next me.

In the haze!!!!!

Am I dead? No I can't be, it didn't touch my soul. Ugh how many times am I going to have a suicide attempt/close to death experience? That doesn't matter. Maybe I am dead. Maybe I could have died, cause the blade could have moved. Who knows.

I opened my eyes not really.
Walking to a tall pine tree I see Cray, Geno, Reaper, Dream, Ink, PaperCut, and as I got behind it Rurik was standing above 2 piles of dust with Pastels and Ruth's clothing . That bastard! Did he kill Ruth and Pastel?! I felt warm tears down my face and someone squeezing me. I looked down and saw Rurik hugging me. I could only feel his smile on his face and the blood spilling out of the new knife wound. He was killing me. It had to represent something right?

End of haze.

I woke up in a hospital.
No wonder I felt squeezing. Rurik was actually hugging me.  Except not killing me. I sat up, not hugging him back. He gasped but whispered, "Are you okay?" "I'm fine but A. How did I get here? And B. Why are you here?"
"1. I drove you here..? 2. The first reason and because I found you passed out on the ground when I came to your house trying to apologize."
"That was too cheesy rurik." I chuckled.
"I know." the green clothed skeleton smiled. I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him.
"I hate you, ya know..." I mumbled and started to cry again. "I know." he squeezed.
"Why do I still love you so?"
"You do?"
...
"Yeah."
I heard shuffling. Ruth and Pastel looked at us then at each other. They started to hug me as well. I love them so much. "Ma are you alright?" Ruth asked. It sounding a little muffled. "Yes, I'm quite alright." We all stopped hugging. "Who is he any way?"
I paused. Rurik and I both had a look of guilt, regret and a bit of pity on our faces.
"He's- We.... I-...he-he's your old man."
"Ohhh. That makes sense." Pastel whispered.
"I'm not old-"
"Oh yes you are."
"I'm not the ancient one."
"I'm not either!" we both joked. The twins went outside in the hall to get something from the vending machines. There was a silence in the room.

The clicking of a clock filled the silence.

He looked at me and stared.

"What? Whatever you're thinking about just say or do it already. And stop staring at me!"
He tilted his head and leaned in. I put my hands on his chest, stopping Rurik.

"What about Dante?"
"So? It didn't work out. Long distance when he was gone for testing things, 3 months since we broke off."
"Oh... I'm so sorry-"
"No it's fine don't be."
"I really thought you two would work out."
"I thought the same."
I sighed. I'm guessing he took advantage of that. He kissed me but I felt like needed to do it back. "Can I at least move back in?"

I contemplated for a second.

Should he?

We only just started talking to each other again....

He left me with 2 children and just insulted me in front of a store yesterday or a few days ago.

What if he's a bad influence still?

What if he's been an alcoholic all this time?

He did drive me to a hospital instead of letting me die.....

What if he wasn't going to my place....?Oh god.

Where would Pastel and Ruth be if he didn't show?

"Yeah."

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