Live a Little

Chapter 21

I woke up cuddled into Benjis chest, he had one arm wrapped around me and the other playing with my hair, keeping me calm, he was good at that.

"Hey babe I see your up, we took a pretty long nap, how you feeling?" He asked in a soothing yet husky voice

"Better, Thankyou so much Benji, for everything I love you" I said snuggling into him harder.

"I love you too babe" he said and kissed the top of my hair,

"Echkhem" someone coughed from the door way, I looked up to see all my brothers piling into the room

"As much as I'm thankful for you being here, you proximity is making me angry, so move" Anthony said bluntly

"Anthony don't be rude he helped me, you have no right to treat him like shit" I scolded

"I'm sorry Benji, that was mean of me, but could you give us a minute with her?" He asked a bit gentler

"Will you be okay babe?" He asked me and I nodded, he kissed my forehead before getting up and leaving.

"Im so, so sorry Mae, I shouldn't of treated you like that, non of us should, it's just hard for me to understand these things, so would you explain it to us? I promise we'll listen and only offer support" he said in a gentle tone as he perched down on the bed next to me followed by the rest of my brothers.

"Just explain to us what happened, when and how" Liam said, ugh I did not want to talk to my brothers about this but I guess it has to be said.

"So I had sex with Elliot" I said bluntly and I saw them all stiffen at my statement like it was new news

"Did you consent?" Jack asked me and I cringed
"Of course, I'm not stupid. No means no" I did in a duh tone

"so why,where,how?" Anthony pressed,

"We where watching a movie and we started making out and one thing lead to another, but I told him I was a virgin and he asked me if I wanted to go through with it, I said yes" I saw them clench their jaw and shift in awkwardness

"Every step of the way he would ask if I was ok, if I wanted to stop, he looked after me, so you don't have to worry about that" I said causing myself to cringe even harder,

"I'm sorry Mae, I really over reacted, I guess I just don't understand why you felt the need to sleep with him, I mean it was you first time I just want to make sure you where ready" Jack said taking hold of my hand.

"I wouldn't have done it if I wasn't ready, but you guys need to realise that I'm growing up, I'm 17, I'm not a kid any more but you don't realise that" I said with a soft tone.

"I guess your right, it's just hard to accept that your not our little process anymore, your all grown up now and don't need us as much and I hate the idea" Jack said softly adding a fake chuckle at the end,

"You Guys raised me, and I would have told you about this eventually, you have been there for everything, My first day of middle school, first day of high school, first Gymnastics competition , every birthday, every Christmas, when I got my tonsils taken out, my first period" that one brought back some memories,

Flashback
2 years ago

"JAACKK" I shouted it loud enough for the whole house to hear. I was sat on the toilet, crying with a sore stomach, and I was bleeding, Yep you guessed right lucky just turned 15 year old me started her period.

Jack came into my room with what sounded like my brothers... great "Mae where are you, what's wrong?" He asked sounding concerned "bathroom, I'll be out in a sec" I said stuffing some toilet paper into my underwear and flushing the toilet

I oped the door and hugged Jack, crying a bit, god my hormones "what's wrong princess" , him and all my brothers looked at me.

"I-I think I g-got my p-period a-and it h-hurts" I hiccuped into his chest, all my brothers looked scared shitless.

"Oh, well that's okay, it perfectly natural" he said like I was stupid.

"no shit Sherlock, I'm not crying cus I'm embarrassed, I'm crying because I'm in pain" I snapped leaving my brother in silence,

I went and sat on my bed and their gaze followed me "oh right... well what do you need?" I thought for a second...

"Tampons" I said "and chocolate, Advil and heating pad, my stomach hurts like a bitch" I whined

"Tampons?" The boys all repeated like they didn't know what they where,

"yeah you know the white cotton stuff, with a string that you shove up your-" but I was cut off before I could finish

"I'll go to the store" Jack said and walked out the room, the boys quickly followed behind

End of flashback

"My first detention, you taught me how to play soccer, ride a bike, cook food, how to throw a punch, you stay with me when I'm scared or sad or ill and provide for me? Your my family and I'll always need you, but I need freedom to" I said, looking up to see all the boys with tears in their eyes

"This also might be a good time to mention I have a third tattoo if I'm getting everything off my chests it's on my left collar bone and it says freedom-"
I stared to nervously ramble and blab but I was pulled into a big hug

"Just be quiet Mae" Jack mumbled into my neck.

"I'm sorry and I love you all" I said and each of them said the same exact thing back to me .

"Let's go home shall we?"