Wild Wine

Chapter 19: Partition?

I'm just here at my car. My tears are falling. This is the first time that I cry this hard. I don't want to lose him. Wine is my only source of happiness.

If I leave him, I will never be happy and he will hate me for the rest of his life. If I stay with him, they will hurt him and his family until we give up on each other.

I don't know what to do...

"Break up with him if you want us to stop! I want you to leave him!"

Am I too selfish if I'm staying with him even though I know that I will be the reason of their misfortune?

Whatever I do, he will get hurt! Sinuntok ko na lang ang kotse.

This is so bad, Wine is their next target and I know what they can do to him. I can't forgive myself if something happened to him.

It's all because of me! Walang ibang dapat sisihin kundi ako lang! Their business was burned because of me! There are worse things that will come to their lives if I stay.

It's too unfair! Whatever I do, I will still lose him. This is the first time that I feel this fear. Hindi ko kayang lumaban sa family ko.

I wiped my tears...

It's enough for crying! I should be brave like what I was before. This is the best thing that I can do. Their lives are more important than my own happiness.

Pamilya na rin ang turing nila sa akin at ganun din ako sa kanila. I can't afford to see them hopeless just because of me. This is the last thing that I can do. My decision is final.

Bumaba na ako ng kotse at pumasok sa bahay nila. I saw Vermouth.

"Where's Wine?" I asked her.

"Hmmm... He's at the park. Nag-alala po siya kanina kasi 'di ka nag-paalam. Kanina pa po malungkot si kuya."

I just looked at my feet...

Yeah, he will be worried because of me. S-Sana hindi na lang niya ako minahal para hindi na kailangan humantong sa ganito.

I'm too selfish! Alam ko naman na mangyayari 'to pero hinayaan ko pa rin ang sarili ko na mahalin siya.

"K-Kuya Whiskey, are you alright? Umiiyak ka po eh!" Malungkot na sabi ni Vermouth.

"I'm fine... Don't worry about me."

She is just looking at my eyes. Parehas sila ni Wine na sobra kung mag-alala. After a second, she smiled at me.

"Halika po!" Nakangiti niyang sabi sabay hatak sa kamay ko.

Dinala niya ako sa sala at naglabas siya ng marshmallows. I-I don't like what's happening here!

"Kuya, gusto ko po na kumain tayo ng marshmallows para gumaan ang loob niyo. Lagi po kasi akong binibigyan ni Kuya Wine nito kapag malungkot ako tapos kinakain namin palagi ng magkasama."

I tried to smile...

She is too innocent. Wala naman sigurong masama kung pagbigyan ko siya this time. She is so nice at me.
This is my first and last bonding with my little sister.

Kumuha na lang ako ng isang piraso at kinain ko. Ganun din siya.

"Kuya ko na rin po kayo ngayon kaya kakain po tayo ng marshmallows!" Masaya niyang sabi.

Yeah, kuya niya na rin ako. Kaso, parang hindi ko naman talaga deserve ang maging kabilang sa family niyo.

"When I first saw you, I know that you are too serious in life. Naisip ko lang po, kulang ka yata sa sweetness! Kaya po sinubuan kita ng marshmallows!"