Loved And Lost

Chapter Four

First of all... I'm super sorry T_T. I bit off WAY more than I could chew, having WIPS here, AO3, Tumblr, and Fanfiction.net at the same time and I've completely hit a roadblock on ALL of them. But, I'm here for another chapter of this and I'll try my best to keep a schedule this time!!

Second of all, I have to say this fanfic is one of the darker ones I've ever written for this fandom. Which is saying a lot, so please listen to my warnings. 

*****Starting here, the story will contain intense manipulation and a toxic relationship, physical abuse, injuries, and mentions of non-consensual sex.***** 

It's so very important that you read this lightly, as even I (the author) am triggered somewhat if I haven't had a great day (hence the reason I've had some trouble posting oops). So please take care of yourselves.

Third of all, HERE WE GO!

"You don't have to take the bus, I can drive you," Matthew said suddenly. Patton looked up from his work, surprised.

"Oh, do you want to?" he asked, eyes wide.

"I just want to spend as much time with you as possible," Matthew said with a thin smile on his face.

"Well, of course, you can drive me!" Patton said, grinning. "That's so sweet!" Matthew smiled, leaning over the table to kiss Patton gently. Patton giggled, feeling a flush rise on his cheeks. "Matt, I gotta finish this homework!" he said, Matthew nodded, stepping away from the table.

"Of course you do," he said. He was smiling devilishly and Patton raised an eyebrow, unable to stop smiling.

Matthew walked away, toward the fridge, and Patton looked back at the math. He hated math. Suddenly, Matthew was behind him, hugging around Patton's shoulders as he kissed his neck. Patton gasped, pleasure tingling through him.

"M-Matthew, please!"

"But you're so sweet." Matthew teased, a hand tangling in Patton's hair.

"Matthew, come on, you know I need to-" Matthew pulled Patton's head back and kissed him deeply. Patton moaned, dropping the pencil back onto the table.

"So sweet." Matthew moaned, lips still barely touching Patton's. He kissed Patton again before continuing. "Sweet little kitten."

Somehow, he'd pulled Patton up out of the chair and against himself like he usually did, not breaking the kiss. Patton reached up and tangled his own hands in Matthew's hair, pulling him closer. It wasn't until he felt them lower than ever that Patton realized Matthew's hands had trailed down his back and sides to his hips, finding a patch of bare skin between his pants and t-shirt.

"M-Matt-"

Matthew didn't let Patton protest, kissing deeper than ever with his tongue exploring Patton's mouth. Patton shivered in pleasure as Matthew's hands went up and down under his shirt, scratching every now and then. Matthew's mouth left Patton's and went down his neck, gently nipping and sucking. Patton groaned when he did one particular spot at the base, and Matthew attacked it, pressing Patton against the wall as he did.

"Matthew..." Patton gasped, closing his eyes. Matthew brought his hands ever lower, underneath the waistband of Patton's jeans. And it felt good, and right, but wrong at the same time. Patton shook his head, gently at first. Matthew didn't notice. "Matthew... st-stop..." he gasped out, getting his hands between their chests. "Matthew!"

"Not yet?" Matthew asked, pulling away every touch and looking at him. Patton stared back guiltily, shocked at the spark of annoyance in Matthew's eyes.

"N-not yet..." Patton whispered. "Soon, just... not yet."

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