Love Riddim

Chapter 17

Today's my 17th Birthday, so this is my gift to you guys even though I'm supposed to be receiving gifts 😅😭

Hyolyn ft. Jooyoung - Erase

Eniola's POV
Ring...Ring...Ring...Ring...Ring...Ring...
'Why is my phone ringing at 3:30 am' I angrily picked up my phone from the wooden bedstand pressing the ignore button.
I slowly untangled myself from Felix's iron-clad grip on my waist and replaced it with a pillow and he snuggled even more to it.
I got off the bed picking up Felix's discarded shirt putting it on. I walked over to the double glass doors that lead to the balcony.
I sat on the swing chair, breathing in the crisp oceanic cold air.
I pull my phone out of the chest pocket calling back the number that had previously called.
Two rings later the caller picked up "Oh thank God you picked up Eniola, it's bad, it's really bad" Mum frantically says she sounded like she's been crying.
"Mummy, what are you talking about? and were you crying?" I asked getting out of the bed pacing back and forth.
"It's your father, he had another stroke again and when I rushed him to the hospital, the doctor told me his health has taken the worst turn and the only thing we can do is pray that the inevitable doesn't come to pass" Mum burst into tears by the end of her sentence.
"Mummy, I want you to calm down and tell me everything from start to bottom" I say in a tone of an adult coaxing a child to behave.
After giving me the full breakdown of everything I wanted to cry because it seems like what we have been avoiding for the past 2 years might actually happen.
"Eniola, I want you and your brothers to come back home because I want your father to see all of you before his death"
"Mummy, don't say that! Daddy is not going to die he's just in a difficult place and he's fighting for his life as we speak right now!" I say raising my voice almost screaming then I remembered Felix was still asleep.
"Eniola, let's not be in denial, it hurts my heart that the only man that ever did me right is going to the other side anytime from now. I'm hurting here even though I tried hard to deny all the signs" I can already visualize Mummy having a breakdown right now.
I sniffled my runny nose wiping the fallen tears with my right hand.
"Mummy, please stop crying, I'll go pick up Ayo and Olu from their school in London and we'll be home three days from now" I inform her I can feel her nodding her head.
I don't know how? But I have an inkling that she nodded.
"Okay Eniola, I see all of you soon, I love you and don't tell you brothers until you arrive back in Lagos" She warned me before cutting the call.
My thoughts were all over the place, I wasn't thinking straight.
I quickly went back inside using my phone flashlight to look for a paper and pen to write a letter for Felix before I leave.
I don't think I have the courage to face him and tell him that I'm leaving after he just confessed his true feelings to me.
'I'm such a coward' I mutter under my breath.
I finally found a journal ripping a page off and used the vintage ink pen I found in the journal and began writing.

Dear Felix,
My heart shatters as I write this, my mind is going blank at this moment because I don't know how to tell you this eye to eye.
Please forgive me for what I'm about to say. Without an explanation, I must leave.
I know this seems very heartless that I'm doing this.
I can't tell you my reason but I just want you to know it was for a really important purpose and someone very dear to my heart is in urgent need of my support.
I need to go back home.
I really love you and please don't ever doubt that.
I felt the need of writing a goodbye letter to you because it would have been insensitive of me not to.
I hope someday we could meet again.
P.S. I love you
                               Yours Faithfully, Eniola

I proofread the letter seeing my tears resemble the rain drops splattered on concrete ground when the sky cries.
I sat up from the chair behind the desk slowly pushing it back in place so it would make any sound to alert him from his sleep.
I tiptoed over to the bed pressing a soft kiss on Felix's forehead and a delicate one his lips.
I almost cried because I have to leave him and the only way of him finding out that I left is him waking and not seeing me beside him in the morning and also by the letter I wrote.
I was tiptoeing around his bedroom picking up my dress, purse and heels.
I'm not leaving his shirt here, it's coming with me something for keep sake to help me remember him by.
Once I had everything I exited the room going in the elevator to take me to my bedroom.
After the elevator ride, I dropped everything on the bed going inside the closet taking out my suitcase and started packing everything.
Once, I was done packing, I opened my laptop booking an express flight to London and a separate one that would take all three of us back to Nigeria from London after I pick my brothers up from their school.
Unfortunately, I can't call the school to notify them of the situation because it's 1:55 am in London right now.
My flight leaves at 6 am, so I'm going to go take a shower now so I won't waste any time and accidentally miss my flight.
I stripped out of Felix's shirt neatly folding it and placing it inside my suitcase with my other luggages.
I enter the bathroom, firstly I took a nice warm bath in the tub to ease the pain in my private part because Felix was quite big.
Then I took a well deserved shower, every time I closed my eyes when I had the water falling on my face, all I could picture in my mind was what had just transpired hours before during Felix's and I love making session.
I think he had straight up dickmatized me. I guess sex with the right person can be addictive.
After brushing my teeth, I wrapped the fluffy cotton towel around my body going back inside the bedroom to cream my skin to avoid being ashy.
I finished putting lotion mixed with coconut oil and shea butter on my skin. I jumped back into bed to get the rest of my sleep not before I set my alarm to wake me up at 5:20 am.
I couldn't even sleep even if I wanted to because, as I slept on the bed ruefully, the guilt still made its way home laying under my skin.
'I don't think I can ever forgive myself, I'm so sorry, Felix' That was the last thing I said before shutting my eyes closed.

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