lost ~~c.h.~~

one

Hi. My name is Leah. I'm a 17 year old girl who is done. If you saw me, you would've thought that i was happy. You would've thought that nothing was wrong. Why did you assume that? Is it because I'm smiling? Because I'm laughing? You assumed that nothing was wrong with me. That nothing is going on in my head. That why would such a nice girl say she self-harms when she's perfect. Nobody's perfect. I learned that early from Hannah Montana. Yeah... she was right. Did you think she was lying? Think about yourself right now. Are you really happy? Do you really think that your perfect? You may seem happy on the outside, but on the inside... your slowly fading away. And that's how my life is. (END OF DIARY ENTRY)

The beeping of the alarm is the most annoying thing ever. As I get up, I look at the clock. 5:30 am. Time to get ready for school. I get up and go to the sink. I have my own bathroom, thank God. I get my straightener out and in the same drawer is my razors. Hey look, there's my best friends, I think to myself.

I straighten my hair, even though it looks bad because 1) my hair is really thick so the starightener never works good, and 2) when do I ever look good? I use lots of makeup- oh what would I do without makeup? I look ugly with or without it, but it does make me look older, so why not?

I get dressed in a long-sleeve, jeans, and vans. My ideal and everyday outfit. It's not like I have to impress anyone. I grab my phone, backpack, and headphonrs and go downstairs to see my mom making breakfast. Oh no... shes going to make me have breakfast... maybe I'll try to sneakout ot come out with n excuse. They usually work.

"Good morning, Honey." my mom says cheerfully. How can you be cheercul in the morning?

"Hi.", I say so plainly she looks up at me and stares.

"What's wrong?", she asks. Oh yeah know mom, the usual of being depressed and hating myself, no big deal right.

"Nothing. I gotta go before I'm late for school. Bye.", I say as I'm walking out the door towards my car. Why do parents always want to know everuthing!

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Hi guys!! Okay... so I'm completely starting a new book and i actually really like these ones. I have chapters written out i just have to type them, but they will mostly just be out on the weekends. I love you guyssss baii