lost ~~c.h.~~

five

I just want to escape reality and run away in a dream. Instead, I'm living a nightmare that never ends, it just gets worse and wose as each day passes. The only time it ends is when I'm sleeping. When I'mm dreaming off to a place no one has been to before. A place where I'm by myself. A place where I can be alone; away from the world. Away from everyday life of bullies and mean older/younger people. Maybe your closest friends are talking behind your back, but you don't know. You don't know becase in this world, it's better not to tell anyone anything. (END OF DiARY ENTRY)

I just hope he doesn't get stuck in this and make me break down my walls. The walls that only one person broke down. The walls I wanted to keep up, forever.

"Thanks... I guess," I say to answer Calum. Why? WHat is going on in his head? I hate getting pitied. Why is the most beautiful thing on earth pitying me? Oh. I know. Because whenever someone sees meone sad, or depressed, or something, they pity them. They pity them so much.

"Why are you guessing that you're really pretty?" Calum stops in his tracks and looks at me. "I'm not joking around. I'm not pitying you, because I know what its like to get pityed. I just..." He stops what he was saying and continues to walk to the other room. I stay silent the whole way. If I open my mouth, I know that my stupid self is going to rui everything.

Before we wlked into the classroom he stops me. I look t him very worried. He bring his mouth th myear, to whisper someting.

"Meet me outside after school. We have plans." Then he backs away from me and walks into the classroom. I follow him and walk back to my seat. Perrie looks right at me and I look at her and then turn my head to the front of the class, because I felt my cheeks turning red.

I hope I dont make a fool of myself ater school.

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There ya go guys! double updatee

ill try to update tomorrow. im too tired today!!!