lost ~~c.h.~~

eight

Imagine being in a huge room the size of a mall. And sitting in the middle of it with no light or anything popping through. Its just you all alone. How do you feel? Sad? Depressed? Alone? All of those are how I feel on an everyday basis. Now think of all the memories of the fun times and the times you spent with the people you love are all around the room. Not seeing you. Not caring that your upset or anything. Feeling alone and broken. This is not only my everyday basis; its my life, and I keep living... dont I? (END OF diary entry)

I hope today turns out good and nothing goes wrong.

Me and Calum walk into the mall. The lights and the colors amaze me. I haven't been to the mall for a while because I'm too afraidthat I might get bullied or made fun of... but since I have Calum, the nerves go away. We walk into Forever 21 and he brings me to a rack.
"Pick anything out. Tonights your night. Its going to be the best night of your life." Calum says with a big smile.
"okay..." i say nervously. I look through the rack and I don't know what to get.
Calum starts on another rack and pucks up this black long sweater. It was perfect.
"Do you like this?" Calum said. "I think you would look perfect in it." he smiles.
I smile and nod. I loved it. I went over to a rack and picked out some black leggings to go with it. As we waited in the checkout line, Calum started staring at me and biting his lip. I smiled and blushed.
"Why are you staring at me." i asked.
"Because your beautiful." Calum said confidently.
"Calum..." i said nervously.
"Yes princess? I-I-I mean Leah..." Calum said and blushed.
"You know Im not beautiful or pretty or perfect. Stop lying. I have seen myself before and theres nothing special. I nee you to please stop lying."
"Leah... Im not lying. Can we have a talk later? Like a one on one talk. No one else."
"okay..." i say quietly.
"thank you."

Oh no... i dont want to break my walls down.

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oh no! whats gonna happen lol.
sorry i havent updated. its a lig weekend so i might update on more time but i have alot of homework and i still have to finish writing it. thank you so much guys. ily alll! message me if you wanna talk!!!!!!!!
love youuuuuuu -lauren 😘