The Escapist

friends without benefits

can't make a friend without forgiveness
can't lose a friend without possession
can't forget a friend without benefits
sit and watch her take your keys
lie in bed and imagine her on your lips
sorry i don't mean to suffocate
sorry didn't mean to frustrate
for years i've entitled myself with feelings that was never mine
and she was the one who told me "it's going to be fine"
f*ck it i'm fu*ked up by my very own emotions
*uck it i'm seeing everything in slow motion
replaying fights that only occurred in my mind
debating with myself cuz i know i'm not the one who's right
but what else do i know?
i'm just another sad and lonely girl
waiting for something to happen in this world
to save me and eliminate me from this slope