it's been about a week since Kat broke up with Sam, he's been okay, really, it surprised us both. he's not just acting like he's okay, he actually seems fine.
we had a long talk yesterday and he thinks he didn't love her as much as he thought he did.
me, on the other hand, I haven't been okay, it's been a week, a whole week of nothing but that kiss playing on my mind. I said I believed him, but now that I think about it, I'm not so sure I do.
I want to bring it up so badly but I can't bring myself to ask about it. what if it ruins our friendship or he gets embarrassed? what am I supposed to say, 'hey Sam did you kiss me because you're gay?' I don't really know Sam's sexuality, I've always assumed that he was straight, I've never seen him with a guy before. but even if he was gay, bi, or whatever he is I wouldn't judge him. it wouldn't change anything between us. I don't want to force him to come out to me or anyone else if he's not ready to.
he might not even know his sexuality.
I've known I wasn't straight since I was about 16, actually I first realised because I noticed I was acting weird around Jake, no one ever picked up on it, it's not like I hid my sexuality, I just never corrected anyone when they assumed things, assume what you want, but if you want the truth, ask me. I've actually been dating someone for about 4 months now, his name is Ethan, he's sweet. I love him
I've been thinking about telling Sam because I feel guilty
just as I get up to walk to Sam's room he walks downstairs
"hey can you sit for a sec?" he nods hesitantly and sits beside me on the couch
"I've got something to tell you, you can hate me if you want to"
"I would never hate you, ever" he interrupts
"you might after this" I take a deep breath. there's no going back "I don't know how to say this because I've never told anyone this before so I'm just gonna come out with it" I take another deep breath and begin to speak again
"Sam, I'm Bisexual" I brace myself for him to curse me out but instead he wraps his arms around me "I'm so proud of you" tears of pure happiness start to fall from my eyes. I didn't expect him to accept me
"why didn't you tell me earlier dude?"
"i-i don't know, I wasn't exactly trying to hide it but I guess it just never came up" I explain
"so are you dating anyone?" well I guess I'm spilling my guts about everything now
"actually yeah, I've been seeing him for about four months now, his name is Ethan" I smile
"I'm happy you found someone, you could have told me about him though" he smiles back
"do you wanna meet him? his parents are in town for the week so he's busy but I could invite him over when they leave, if that's okay with you" I bite my lip nervously
"yeah of course, I'd love to meet him"
"he's been wanting to meet you and Jake for a while actually" he smiles at my words
"does he watch our videos?" I nod
"yeah, he wasn't a fan before but he eventually worked out who I was and started watching from there"
"what does he look like?" I pull my phone out from my pocket and realise the only picture of him is my home screen. I show Sam and begin to blush. the picture is of us both shirtless, with Ethan kissing my neck while I smile widely.
"it's the only good picture of us together" my face reddens even more
"cute- the picture- n-not him- I mean he's cute too- I mean- fuck- you guys are a cute couple" he slaps his forehead and laughs slightly
"you think my boyfriend is cute?" I tease
"shut up you know what I meant" he laughs again
"yeah"
"hey Colbs?" I look up at him "yeah?"
"do you wanna tell the fans?" he questioned
"I don't want to hide myself from them because they've given me a platform but what if they hate me? or you or the rest of the group gets hate? what if we lose fans?" I start to panic
"hey, dude relax, you'll be fine, yeah you might get hate but those are haters, not fans, the true fans will stay through it all. and you've got us, your friends, forever" his words are so comforting
"alright, here goes"
I click the button to go live on instagram and wait til a decent amount of people join.
"um hey" I wave awkwardly
"I've got something important to tell you guys but I didn't want to make a video so I thought this would be the best way to say it- oh wow I'm rambling- anyway. here goes" I take a deep breath and begin to speak
"so since I was about 16 I've always wanted to love someone and be loved back, and I never pictured being with a specific gender, I've just always wanted that person that I can turn to on my good days and bad, the person that can pull me aside and say 'colby you're being a dick' the person that makes me feel alive, my other half, and I'm so happy to say I've found that person-" I cut myself off as I read the comments, the majority of them are positive and about half are asking about 'solby' "sorry guys, no that person isn't Sam, that person is my boyfriend Ethan. we've been together for about 4 months now. I love him with all my heart, I'm gonna post a picture of us when I end this. I hope you will accept me for who I really am. I love you guys" I end the live stream, post the picture, tag him, and see Sam smiling
"you did great Colbs" I smile and sigh
"I'm so glad I did it"
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solby
Fanfictionthis story is a continuation of the Sam and Colby video that they kissed (or didn't actually kiss in, ya can't really tell) what happens when two best friends kiss for the camera? what happens when the camera gets turned off?
