save me

two

after the terrifying even of that day, i made sure to stay by john's side as much as possible. i couldn't remember the last time i had gone out to somewhere other than the studio or a gig. but to be honest, i wasn't complaining. my boyfriend's well-being was much more important than my social life. not that i didn't like john's company! we'd have a movie night, play a board game or simply cuddle for hours. i loved everything about him and i enjoyed every second we spent together. there was just one problem- he wasn't getting better.

when i first found out about his eating habits, or more like lack of, i thought he'd just gradually start eating again, but i soon learned that it was much harder than that. i could see that he was trying, but it looked like something deep inside was screaming horrible things at him- and he seemed to believe everything the voice was saying. even though he tried to hide it, i could see the pain in his eyes. they had lost that special sparkle and now it was as if grey clouds had gathered and blocked the light i missed so deeply.

i couldn't stand seeing him like this. he was like a sad puppy wandering through life.

i knew that the origin of all this was the issues he was having with his body. what i had to do was help him understand that he really was gorgeous, easily the mist beautiful man i had ever laid my eyes on.

so when brian suggested a week-long holiday to spain, i saw it as the perfect opportunity. i'd work hard and i wouldn't stop until the shine returned to the younger boy's gaze. but could i really do it in only seven days?

that what was going through my mind as i folded yet another shirt into my suitcase. i closed it and after a struggle consisting of me trying to zip up the case and having to take out a pair of trousers to make it budge i was finished.

i could hear shuffling in the room next to mine, indicating that deaky probably wasn't done yet. deciding to pay him a visit, i waltzed out the doorway and after turning a corner, entered john's bedroom. his room was a mess to say the least. it looked like his wardrobe had exploded- there were clothes everywhere from his bed to what looked like a shirt hanging on his guitar stand. they boy himself was sitting in the middle of it all, a different colored hoodie in each of his outstretched hands.

"darling did a tornado go through here?" i exclaimed, before walking over and plopping myself down next to him on the corner of the bed.

"i'm pretty sure you would've noticed if that was the case," he spoke, a small smile on his face. "and no, actually. i just can't figure out what to take with me..."

"well then darling, you're in luck! i happen to know a lot about fashion and can definitely help you out of your dilemma," i said, already reaching for a pair of yellow shorts that were partly hidden under the blanket.

"sure, just keep in mind that you're styling me, not yourself fred," he answered, his tone playful. my heart fluttered in my chest, i loved when he was in a good mood- those were the moments that he missed, moments that don't happen very often these days.

"of course. i'll make sure to make your outfits as boring as possible," i said, chuckling. i couldn't help but notice thar his smile had become even bigger.

"my outfits aren't boring! just because i don't dress like a stuckup peacock, i'm boring, huh?" he inquired, a small giggle escaping his throat.

"ah!" i gasped. "how could you say that?!" i exclaimed acting offended.

"can't be mad if it's the truth," he muttered, still smiling.

"well aren't you just the nicest this morning! i still love you, though." i really did love him to pieces. he was my everything

"i love you too, you sappy git," he murmured, before planting a soft kiss on my parted lips. his action caught me by surprise, he really was in a great mood today. i reached up and carefully cupped his jaw, running my thumb over his cheek. his eyes closed and he pressed his face closer to my hand, letting out a small hum of pleasure.

"i really do love you, you know," he whispered, his hand moving to my waist.

"i know," i replied with a smile.

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a/n: so this is just a filler cuz i wanted to do two chapters today to start off the story
anyway chapters will usually be this length, is that okay?