"oh, and i wanted to tell you, that i'm not homophobic. because of the chat, you know? it kinda sounded like i have homophobia, i mean, i would support you if you were gay."
he said and and laid down on my sofa. but it's not that easy to just tell him. what if something would change? i love to hold his hand and get coffee. i love to cuddle with him while we watch our childhood movies. i love... him too much.
"no, it's fine haha. i know you're not homophobic."
that was probably the worst fake laugh i ever did.
the only thing we could hear was the ticking of the clock and our breathing.
does he believe me? what if he already knows i'm gay? is it all just a test for me to say i'm gay? what if he leaves?
"are you gay?"
"what?"
"i mean, you were never interested in girls, you never had a girlfriend and you never fell for someone. not even a boy."
"i don't know. i'm not that interested in dating in general."
well, that's a lie.
"you know you can tell me if you like boys."
should i?
"i know, but i'm straight."
fuck you, brain.
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Fanfictionseungjin || stray kids and what the hell are we tell me we were just friends this doesn't make much sense started; 09/08/19 ended; 09/28/19 edited; 08/01/22
