C l i n o m a n i a c - A BNHA Chatroom Fanfic

9 - d i s q u e i t u d e

A/N: Disquietude is a feeling of dread or anxiety. 

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I grabbed the small, gray journal that I kept at my desk. I hadn't used it in a while, I really only used it when I needed to get out thoughts or feelings. I wrote down today's date in thin, black strokes on the paper. 

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Dear diary,

Hey. It's been a while since I last wrote, but I really need to get some shit off of my chest. So, everyone in UA knows that I got kidnapped, then got myself the hell out of there. The public never knew, which is good for me. But why am I even writing this, you ask? I feel awful.

While I was there, the villains said something that gives me a feeling of absoulte dread every time I think about it. 

"Or we could hurt those little friends of yours." 

What makes it scary is the fact that they probably can and will do that. It just makes me feel so helpless and weak. I hate it. If I hadn't used all my stamina on some dumb prank, my friends would be safe, I would be safe, we'd all be safe. But no, I had to be a little bitch. 

It feels just like when I lost my parents, and I never want to have that happen again. 

-Y/N L/N

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I closed the book and put it back into it's hiding space under my matress. I then let a tear roll down my cheek. Unfortunatley, one tear turned into many, until I was lying down on my bed, crying and staring out of the window. I looked at my watch and realized it was almost dinner time. I got up and went to my computer. 

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>To: Mina Ashido

Hey Mina! Please tell Mr. Aizawa that I'm not feeling well, thanks.

> From: Mina Ashido

No problem, feel better soon <3

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I sighed and shut my laptop. I walked over to the other corner of my room where I had a punching bag. I drew my fist back, and gave it a punch. It felt suprisingly good to let out my anger on something. I punched it a few more times before just giving up all together. I then heard a knock at my door. 

"I'm not feeling well, come back later." my voice was still a bit shaky from crying. 

"Yo, but what about gardening?" Kami spoke from the other side. 

"I said, I'm not feeling well. We can do it some other day." I had an annoyed tone in my voice, but I couldn't hear it. As far as I was concerned, I sounded normal. 

"Y/N, have you been crying?" I heard Mina. 

"I... Uh... It doesn't matter." My words faded out at the end. 

"Remember, you can talk to us about an-" 

"Just go." I heard their footsteps as they walked away, and a few mutters. 

"She's not usually like this..." it sounded like Kiri. 

"Yeah, I'm really worried about her now." This voice was Mina. 

I couldn't help but feel awful. My friends had just offered to help me, and I turned them away without a second thought as to what I was saying. I opened up my computer.

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Ghost: i'm sorry. <

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Cliffhangers! The next chapter will come out whenever I'm feeling it :<

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