Bucky x Reader

Chapter 3

Bucky’s pov:

I put on a nature channel since Y/N seemed to stare out the window a lot, it was a little odd since the view from our apartment was just a bunch of trees but I didn’t know how long it had been since she’s seen it. When we raided the Hydra base they must’ve been tipped off by someone as almost all of their intelligence had been deleted, all the missions and research the only thing we knew was her name and age, nothing about her past or that she’d done it was a complete mystery. The fact that she was an enhanced took us completely off guard, Wander didn’t even had time to react before being smashed through 3 walls how we managed to sedate her was a miracle. Breaking out of my thoughts I glanced over seeing as slight smile on her face, it was adorable shame she didn’t do it more often. I must’ve been staring too long because she turned to face me with a slightly uncomfortable look making me look away quickly.
Hours past of the two of us just sitting in silence watching the TV she didn’t move her eyes off the screen once which couldn’t be too good for them but I wasn’t going drag her away from it, it was the most peaceful I’d seen her since she arrived. Just wished she’d open up more every time I tried to get to know something about her she completely shuts me out, I thought opening up to her would help but so far it hasn’t worked and I don’t want to push too hard. Guess storming off once I’d seen that burn really hurt her but I just couldn’t contain my anger and I didn’t want her to see it in case it scared her off.
Suddenly, I heard a soft thud against my metal arm turning to see Y/N leaning up against it.

“Y/N?” I asked but she didn’t reply leaning forward a little seeing her eyes closed, was she asleep? Listening closely I could tell her breathing was slow and steady, yeah she must be asleep. God she was so cute, not that I could ever tell her that she was much younger than me beside she probably didn’t like me back anyway don’t even know if she knew what likening someone was like. The lift pinged looking over to see Steve and Natasha walk out their eyes immediately falling on the two of us Steve’s face lighting up quickly Natasha smirking a little which I ignored. Scooping my arms around her want body I slowly lifted her off the couch trying my best not to wake her up which worked, her head rested up against my chest her lips parted slightly as she slept softly. Laying her down on the bed pulling the covers over her, I smiled a bit brushing some stray hairs out of her face. Wow her skin was so soft.

“ Er Buck?” I heard Steve say making we walk out her room closing the door slowly but not shutting it all the way.

“ Yeah,” I replied seeing him stood in the doorway to the bathroom with my torn up shirt on one had and Y/N's blood soaked jumper in the other. My shoulders tensed up a little as I adverted my gaze, things like this used to happen all the time when I was first brought here I let Steve think I was getting better but to be honest I just got better at hiding them. I hated how he looked at me after an “ episode” it made me feel so weak and useless like I was just a burden to him and everyone else in this building. So I just stopped telling him the fact that he thought I was getting better made him happy, I didn’t want to break it to him. “ Is this what I think it is?” He asked sighing deeply, I didn’t say anything. I couldn’t, god I felt so ashamed it wasn’t even my fault these happened yet I still left so bad about it. “ Oh Buck why didn’t you say anything,” He said dropping the clothes onto the floor placing his hand on my shoulder squeezing it slightly.

“ I didn’t want you to feel bad,” I said lifting my head up to him and there it was, that stupid look plastered over his face. I know he didn’t mean it to be so belittling but it felt that way and I hated it, “ I’m fine though it was just a one off.” I said with a small smile trying to ease the worry off him but clearly it wasn’t working.

“ Why are Y/N's clothes covered too,” He asked looking down at her jumper.

“ She helped me.” I said feeling the heat rise to my cheeks a little.