Regaining Bonica's Love

Chapter 7

M A R S H A L L

"Don't speak. I'm leaving." Her words are like an echo that kept on repeating in my mind.

Natulala ako ng gabing tinupad niya ang kasunduan namin.

I'll have sex with her and then she'll disappear from my life. The truth is, I couldn't fucking focus in getting Keylanie's love when she's around. At hindi ko magawang i voice out sa kanya ito. Sadyang, itinaboy ko lang siya ng ilang beses.

Magmula pa noong teenagers kami, everytime I would visit Key at their grandmother's house, she's fucking clouding my mind and I hate it.

All I wanted was to focus on Key.

Three months had passed that I didn't see even her shadow. Ilang araw rin akong balisa ng hindi ko maintindihan kaya inubos ko ang oras ko sa pag tatrabaho at pagsama kay Key at Sol tuwing magbabakasyon sila.

"Key, mahal kita. Ang totoo niyan, matagal na." I confessed to Key when we had a vacation at Palawan.

I was anticipating a good answer since mukhang wala naman kaming naging problema sa isa't isa.

Pero...

"I'm sorry Marsh. Kahit anong gawin ko, It's just... Just plain platonic saka si Arthus ang mahal ko. Alam mo naman yun at sa pagkakakita ko, you've been bothered for quite some time sa pag alis ni Bonica. I suggest that you figure out who you truly love and what you really feel for me. Kung pagmamahal pa ba mula sa puso o ang sinasabi nalang ng isip mo. " Sagot niya.

Pagkauwi namin galing sa bakasyong yun ay agad akong nagbabad sa pagtatrabaho at sa paghanap sa sarili ko at sa tunay kong nararamdaman.

Is it really Keylanie or Bonica?

Namulat lang ako sa katotohanang infatuation and obligation lang pala ang nararamdamn ko kay Key ng ilang buwan ring hindi ako mapakali sa pag iisip kung nasaan ba si Bonica, kung ano ang ginagawa niya at kung baka may asawa na ba siya. I could really hire an investigator but I'm afraid to know all about her status now.

Paano nalang kung naging masaya pala siya sa piling ng iba dahil sa pagtataboy ko?

Kumukulo ang dugo ko sa tuwing naiisip ko na may mahal na siyang iba na palagi niyang kasama at katabi sa kama.

Baliw na yata ako. I hired a painter to paint her image in a huge canvas and placed it in my room. I even printed her picture and placed it in a frame that's on my office table and the other one's in my wallet.

Oh Bonica!

I'm a total asshole for letting you slip away from me thinking that you would just mess up my mind and decisions in loving Key.

Napaka bobo ko para ngayon lang mapagtanto na in the first place, hindi naman magugulo ang utak at puso ko kung si Key talaga ang mahal ko. I should've gave us even a little time to know each other just like what she asked.

Fucking shit!

It's really true that sometimes, you just learn to appreciate and love someone when they're gone.

"Marsh, Arthus and I decided that you will be his best man on our upcoming wedding. So ano, go na ha?" Key asked as she started scribling my name on a piece of paper.

At dahil kaibigan ko naman silang dalawa at tanggap ko na sa sarili ko na iba pala ang mahal ko ay sumang ayon ako.

"By the way, sino ba maid of honor mo?" I asked at saka uminom ng juice na nakalagay sa mesa.

Nagkatinginan naman silang dalawa ni Art at nang humarap sa akin, ay mapanuya niya akong tiningnan.

"Are you expecting someone to be my maid of honor? Is it perhaps, my beautiful cousin Bonica?"