live out loud

us

part one

my stomach churns

my thoughts turn

to you

like they always do.

I think about what I'm doing wrong

how we used to be so strong

we used to have a bond

but now it's gone.

you used to be my closest friend

I thought that 'us' would never end

but it did.

you got rid

of your thoughts and memories,

now I get tremors

easy come easy go

but I just can't let go.

part two

we fell so easily apart 

but my heart

cannot take the loss it's given.

this feels like a prison

of my own thoughts and lies,

binding my mind with ties

and tying my throat

but I cannot float

surrounded by my insecurities

and impurities.

I struggle for air

but do any of you care?