eating TW/
i've kinda gotten into the habit of me not eating and it's pretty great. i catch myself whenever i go to eat when i'm bored and i'm like haha don't do that. but even in general i've eaten two 'meals' in the past three days, just water with that too. but i don't think my body is handling it very well. i'm getting sick and my migraines are getting worse but i'll just have to take medicine for those i guess. but idk im also kinda like bloated at the same time? sometimes i'll feel really thin and be happy but then sometimes i'll look at myself in the mirror and think 'wow u r disgusting' :))))
idk ill probably keep this up until i faint or i get too dehydrated or something. or until i'm to my goal weight:/
but idk because i feel literally disgusting in my own body.
i also really want this boy:( this is so irrelevant but he's literally perfect and i'm not. we've been flirting non stop for a week now and i don't even know what his intentions are. we haven't talked in a day and i'm like hhh i probably messes everything up but it's whatever, i'll see him on monday. i just don't deserve him even if he does say that he caught feelings for me. THATS ANOTHER THING, i'm literally in love with him and i don't even know if he feels the same way. i'm get so attached to people so quickly and i hate that dude. im s o mad at myself but i cant do anything about it. whatever.
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