I don't know anymore
I can't do this anymore, I hurt so much you don't even know. Today my higher up forced me to do push ups, as many as possible. I thought these guys wanted the best for me, that proves a lot.
I wish I could just lay down and cuddle Liz, she means so much. So so much. It's so cold and depressing here, the death is getting obnoxious.
I wish I could feel happy or loved again, but that hasn't been possible since I was deployed. I hate this so much, I might make this my last deployment and get myself kicked out. But how is the question I had been facing, I can't keep doing this. I just can't.
I don't know how to face the devil with courage, anything that has happened in my life has a reason, but I think it's just me having bad luck. Everything has grown worse over here and I do not know what to do anymore, I guess I just wait for the next walk or torture exercises.
I wish I make it home to see Liz, I want to have my whole future with her. She's perfect.
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Soldiers Diary: Afghanistan
AdventureThis story is going to turn into a series of different stories, venturing from branch to branch to different places. Research and studying was put into this book, not just for military, but climate and wildlife. A full notebook (or two) were used...
