eccedentesiast (poetry)

blame

i feel like i should
stop associating my
feelings for you
with every minor inconvenience
that has occurred to me.

i should stop blaming
all my loneliness on you.
because you did
absolutely nothing wrong.
it was entirely me, and
i am just blaming my sadness
on you.

you did the right thing.
you moved on and stayed happy,
just like i told you too.
but my selfishness is showing
and blaming it all on you.
and maybe it's a subconscious thing,
and i'm not intentionally doing this.

but it's probably because
i think i miss you.
and i can't tell if i miss you
or i miss our memories.

january 11, 2020
5:29 p.m.
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hi i'm not dead i'm just uninspired