"I used to cry
But now I don't have the time
I used to be so fragile
But now I'm so wild"
2 years ago
I wake up in a strange bed at noon and I feel like puking my insides out. My stomach is aching, the throbbing in my head is making me want to die.
Looking around, I don't know where I am. I don't know who this guy is. Looks like the dude who bought pills from my dealer in the local club last night.
I groan when I remember I owe him fifty bucks. What day is it today? Everything is in a weird haze. I need to go home.
Where are my clothes? Fucking hell I don't remember anything.
"Hey," the stranger's rough voice is making my head pound harder.
"Shut the fuck up," I plead before willing myself to get up.
New routine.
I'm not sure I like this person I have turned into, but I don't have the energy to ponder it.
These aspects of my new lifestyle are ugly and nauseating, but every time I get the explosion of chemicals and visions in my brain right before everything goes black, I swear, it's the only thing that gets me by these days.
On the way home I check my phone and see several messages and missed calls from people I used to be close with.
Why can't everyone just leave me alone?
I've worn myself out, like an old winter coat. Do I need anyone? No.
Not anymore.
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See You Bleed | ✓
Romance"I was too young to know how to love you." "I just want to see you bleed." A story of a man and a woman who hurt each other in their destructive and all-consuming love. • Explicit language. • Drug addiction. Copyright © 2020.
