When God Showed Me You

Chapter 12 - The Departure

Then the ambulance came. It took so long for the ambulance to arrive because we are on the top of a mountain. The staff in the ambulance picked her up and I helped them.

I called Martha and Ian to meet me there in Jehovah Rapha Hospital. She was rushed to the emergency room and then transferred to the ICU. She was being monitored by the doctors

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I was there outside on the bench speechless. I can't believe what was just happening. It was just too fast.

Then Ian arrived and saw me and said, "Don't worry brother, God is sovereign, He is in control." I just nodded.

I did not notice that I fell asleep on the bench. I had a familiar dream while I was sleeping. It was about a worship leader I dreamed more than 2 years ago in whom I cannot recognize the face. I thought before that it was Rachel

But this time the face becomes clear, it was really Rachel, but she's crying and she looks at me and waving goodbye. Her face was sad and then she walks away from the stage.

I chased her and I passed through the backstage. I saw her bringing her baggage and said
"I am going away Jacob."
"But where?" I asked her.

"I am going to an eternal departure. I am going to a place where the streets are gold, where I have a room prepared by my Father," she replied while she smiled at me.

"Jacob, wake up, something is happening in the ICU!" Martha woke me up.

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We rushed to that room and we saw on the glass window she is fighting for life. Her vital signs went critical.

I always pinch myself thinking that It was only a dream like I used to when I am in doubt about what is happening. But sadly, It is very real.

I can sense the doctors are giving up. One of them shaking his head and looked at his watch.
"Time of death 3:05 AM."

Even though I did not hear what he said, but I can read his lips. My world gets crumbled and tears start flowing in my eyes.

If only we did not go on the top of a mountain, maybe she could have a chance to be rescued. I blamed myself that is why I punched the wall.

Ian saw that ran to me, "Jacob, we lost her. I am sorry. The doctor said she got more complications in her body because of her condition"
and he continued, "And please, don't blame yourself!"

I don't know what to say. So Ian just hugged me as I cried a lot and I cried like never before.

I touched my left cheek. I never know that kiss will be the last moment I had with Rachel.

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When I arrived home because they let me rest, I wrote again a poem for her because poems are again my outlets:

On the day that you departed
I was sad and brokenhearted
I realized that day
That I am now very lonely

And now I'm missing you
You'll be always in everything I do
From the day I will wake up till I rest in the night
And even in my dreams when I will sleep tight

And then I opened my Bible. I almost forgot God maybe because I was disappointed why He let this happen. I was led to this verse in Isaiah 55:8-9

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,
declares the Lord.
As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."