Honeymoon Avenue

25.Tangled sheets

I couldn't believe it, the girl of my dreams, my soulmate, my best friend

I had been extremely shocked when she knocked on my door yesterday, late at night.

We had sex and I couldn't believe it

Ondreaz? I had asked her, she gave no answer and honestly, I didn't care

Freshmen, I could have never believed it but here she was dead asleep next to me.

she shuffled, a bit, I could feel her waking up

"Hey there"

she was still half asleep

"do you want to get breakfast, I know a really good brunch place"-I started

she looked at me weird

"uhhhh"

"or we could stay in bed all day or do anything really" I backtracked

"um.."

it's not my first time waking up in Carson's apartment but this felt wrong

had last night really happened

I hadn't been overwhelmed with lust so why had I forced myself to sleep with him?

I had a pit in my stomach, this was plain wrong, it felt wrong, he was my best friend

I stood up from his bed, wearing his t-shirt and a messy bun

Carson stared at me, a puppy dog look in his eyes, oh no

"What?!"-I said, I winced it came out too harsh

"Nothing...I just can't believe you're actually wearing my clothes"

was he serious?!

I walked towards his bathroom, staring at my own eyes through the mirror.I was freaking mess

not what I expected

unnerving

my heart is just not in it

I practiced my goodbye speech.

"Carson?" I exclaimed as I stepped out of his bathroom

"yes, baby?"

"Don't call me that"

"huh?"

"Listen, I made a mistake, what we did was wrong.I'm sorry if I played with you,I was really confused but I know what I want"

"I want Ondreaz, I'm sorry I don't think we can be friends"

"it didn't feel wrong last night"

I suddenly felt embarrassed that my childhood best friend, the kid that ate my mom's homemade cookies with me, the kid my grandma knew, had seen me in that way, touched me in that way.

"I'm serious, goodbye"-I added trying to gain some composure

not caring for his reaction, I grabbed my shoes and walked out the door