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-amala it's been a few weeks since i've talked to mar. i can't even lie. i do miss him. i miss how he would make me laugh with his weird jokes, the way he'd laugh whenever samy would eat his pancakes or how he was so chill. mattia is cool and all but he's been acting weird lately. he'd always go out at night and come back with weird bruises. oh i forgot to tell y'all. i'm dating mattia again. it was nice for the first few days but now it's just like he's just there. does the bare minimum for 2 hours then goes home to do God knows what. i have a feeling he's hiding something from me. one day i found this account called roadmanmattiareposts and the bio read "i repost posts from mattia's spam."
"mattia has a spam?" i thought. i requested to follow it and i'm still on requested. not gonna lie it kinda hurts me. he's on my spam. i didn't even know had two. one is public and the private one with the smaller following i can't get into.
i got a phone call from samy so i picked up. "yeo amala!"
"yes?"
"i need you to come to rideau central hospital. and QUICK!"
"alright alright i'm coming"
"amala wallah it's serious it's-". the phone was cut off. maybe his phone died maybe he lost service. anyways i told josh (cousin) to go out so we can go together.
i lowkey sped to the hospital. i had to have been important. samy never says wallah. i started panicking. even if i hadn't told josh we were going to the hospital he probably felt like something was wrong. the was an awkward tension in the car. once we got to the hospital i called samy and he cane down to get us. he told the receptionist that we were with him so she asked for ID then let us go. in the elevator i asked:
"why did you call me? who's here?" i hadn't looked at samy until now. you could see he had been crying. you could also see the pain in his eyes. we looked at each other and i nodded not wanting to make him cry.
when we got to the hospital room we saw mariano's family there. mariceli saw josh, he opened his arms to hug her and she started crying in his arms. i saw mariano's mom. she looked at me gave me a weak smile then gave me the biggest hug ever.
"i think you should go in alone." she said insinuating to the hospital room. i went in and saw mar. he was asleep and all bruised. i could see some dried up blood in his hair. i go up closer to him. i caress his cheek and when i felt something going from my chin to my chest i knew i was crying. i wanted to talk to him. i needed to know what happened. i was going to wait for him to wake up. i took a chair and put it beside the bed. the chair was the perfect height for me to lay my head on the bed so i did and held his hand. i don't care what mattia thinks. this is more important right now. this is where i need to be. needless to say i cried myself to sleep that night.
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when i woke up i saw that i had about 10 missed calls and 35+ texts from mattia. not going to lie, i wasn't in the mood to put up with him but just so he doesn't go tell my grandparents and give them a heart attack i texted him.
i'm at the hospital, someone's not feeling well
who who isn't feeling well
don't worry. i'll tell you when it's over
nah tell me now
mattia i am not in the right state right now to be arguing
k wtv read i turn to mar and try to see if i can wake him up.
"ayo mar." i squeeze his hand a little to try and wake him up but he's unusually cold- he's frozen actually- now that i'm thinking about it his lips do look a little more blue- he's-
i run out crying calling a nurse saying he's dead. i forgot about the emergency button. nurses came in and told me i couldn't be in the room. i waited at the door crying.
"God, i can't lose him. please bless him. make him be fine."
