The Rule Breaker Boss [R-18]

[7] Caught

-ASH-

Nandito na naman ako sa pakiramdam na parang sasabog ang puso ko. Hindi ko na naman maipaliwanag ang kabang nararamdaman ko. Na sabi ko sa sarili ko, hindi ko dapat nararamdaman. Dapat masanay na ako sa presensya nya.

But what the hell is this?

"His has ONLY ONE rule: you have to focus on me. Sa akin lang. Hindi sa iba. Otherwise, you'll have to suck him."

That's what he said pagkapasok ko ng opisina nya and the moment na maisara ko ang pinto. So basically, he's saying I'm supposed to give him all my attention, like, no distractions allowed. And he's calling me out for not following his rule. Correction, my real boss's rule.

"I will let you do all the job, wala akong ibang gagawin." Sabi pa ni boss, then he gave me a little smirk.

Nakaupo siya sa kanyang swivel chair habang ako ay nandito na sa harapan nya at nakatayo pa rin. I'm hesitating.

For fuck's sake, ngayon ko lang 'to gagawin.

"Hey, you gonna do it or what?" sabi nya. "Just tell me, it's not like I'm gonna force you or something. Tell me when you're ready." dagdag pa nya.

I closed my fist. I know, nandito na naman sya sa point na gusto nyang i-trigger ang vulnerability ko. At sinusubukan na naman nya akong talunin sa sarili nyang laro.

But it's kinda nice of him to say that. It prevented my feeling of apprehension.

I feel challenged instead.

"Allright. Go back to your work," Sabi nya, at umayos na sya ng upo. He put his glasses back on at muli na syang tumutok sa laptop nya.

"Xavier," pagtawag ko sa kanya.

I looked at his expression. And that's when I knew, I won. He didn't expect me to call him by his name kahit na siya na mismo ang nagsabi noon sa akin.

"From now on, you can only refer to me as Xavier. No honorifics. Just my name. Dahil kapag tayong dalawa lamang ang magkasama, may iba kang boss."

"It's now or never," sabi ko pa.

"What are you saying?" He asked.

Napakunot ang noo ko. "No. What are YOU saying,"

Sabi ko, at lumuhod na ako sa harapan nya. I know it's weird, wild, kind of new to me but hell I'm gonna do this. I'm gonna do this or I'm never gonna do this. Ever.

"H-hey Ash, it's fine if you wanna take it easy--"

I looked at him. My eyes are somewhat pleasing.

"Oh my god," bulong nya.

"Bakit, hindi mo ba 'to ine-expect, Xavier?" I asked him.

Tiningnan ko ang kamay nyang nakapatong sa lamesa. Medyo nanginginig ito. Mahahaba ang kanyang mga daliri at maugat ang likod ng palad nya. Maging ang kanyang braso.

Kinuha ko ito, at saka ako tumitig sa mga mata niya. I placed his palm on my cheeks.

"Kung hindi ko 'to gagawin ngayon, hindi ko na 'to gagawin kahit kailan." sabi ko.

And then his eyes softened.

I felt his thumb rubbing my cheek.

"No, Ash."

"It's just me, my anxiety and my overlapping insecurities." Sabi ko pa. 

Maya-maya ay nagulat ako nang bigla syang tumungo at hinawakan ang magkabila kong pisngi. Then he kissed me on my lips.