Nerd

Kitchen Kinks

—11:37pm—

Jungkook: Hey

Jungkook: You asleep ?

Jungkook: I mean awake

Jungkook: Duh If you were asleep you wouldn't reply

Why's he randomly messaging me ? He hasn't texted me in months

Ohhhh yeah maybe it's because we slept together the other night ..

Or the fact that we kissed today ..

Just a hunch

I should ignore these texts. I'm feeling hella confused  still

Jungkook: You're up. I can see you've read the messages

Me: Crap
Shit I typed my thought and sent it ! Wasn't the plan

Jungkook: I'm guessing you're not happy I texted then?

Me: I'm not unhappy

Jungkook: :)

Me: Use emojis. Those smiley faces aren't like you

Jungkook:😊

Me: That's more like it :)

Jungkook: Y/N I miss you

Me: You saw me today though

Jungkook: You know what I mean. I miss us. How we once were.

Me: Me too

Jungkook: Then what are we doing ?? Let's get back together. Be my girlfriend again. Please baby I just want things to be back to normal ❤️

Me: You don't know how badly I want us to just go back to normal

Jungkook: Then baby just say yes

Me: It's not that easy

Me: You see in order to go back to normal , I would have to feel like nothings changed. But so much has. I believed that after what happened last time that you would never leave me again, and I had complete confidence in you which is why my trust is now gone.

Me: When we got together it took me a while, but I finally started becoming confident again and slowly started reconnecting with the part of me everyone loves.

Me: But now I feel like I'm slowly losing that part again

Jungkook: I'm sorry Y/N . I really am sorry and I've never felt so shit in all my life. I don't want you to feel those insecurities ever again , because I spent so long trying to distract and make you forget about them.

Jungkook: I love the person you've become since we've been dating. It felt like I was with the same girl I met when I was 15

Jungkook: I'm sorry I let my fears control my actions. I'm sorry for leaving you when I promised I never would

Jungkook: Please please forgive me Y/N

Me: I forgive you