You and me

Lionesses call up

Leah's POV:

It's been two weeks now since Jordan and I found out about Dan's injury. Still, Jordan isn't over it yet. She's been down most of the time and we haven't talked properly since that night at the hospital. It seems like she tries to avoid me at all costs, but I can't think of anything I've done wrong. All of this freaks me out, but I don't know what to do to make her feel better. On top of that both of us have been called up for the upcoming Lionesses camp, which actually is a good thing. This is my first senior call up for England so I feel honored. On the other hand I'm going to be a bit lonely if Jordan decides not to go, 'cause I know she's been thinking of decline.

"Hey Jordan, we need to talk, now!"

"About what?" She exclaims.

"You know what I mean, you have to let someone in before you have a mental breakdown! The last two weeks have felt like a living hell, you've barely talked with me. I'm not gonna lie, I do miss the old Jordan. Like, where's that always smiling and energetic person I got to know about a month ago? It all can't be gone just like that, right?" I let out, in hope for her to let me in.

"Well, first of all I'm sorry for making you feel that way, it was absolutely not my intention. Secondly, I feel like I've lost control of so many things and I can't talk to anyone about it. I miss the old me too, but it won't be better before Dan is back I suppose..."

"I'm here for you whenever you need me, just talk to me next time, okay? And by the way, don't let this bring you down, I need an experienced one to stick around with during camp! Also Lucy will probably miss you way too much if you don't show up you know, you can't do that to her either!"

"Okay, I'll accept the call up. But you need to know I'm doing this for you... and my best friend of course." Jordan responds.

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Jordan's POV:

The reason I've tried to avoid Leah as much as possible the past two weeks is because I'm no longer able to hold my feelings for her back. I just can't talk to her, I'm scared of doing something I will regret later, especially now when Dan isn't around.

~A week later at St George's Park~

I'm not in the mood for football right now, but I'm still glad that Leah convinced me to go to camp. I can at least get my mind of Dan for a second. I've missed all the girls on the national team as well, so to meet up with them after such a long time apart cheered me up a bit.

"Eeeyy Luce, how are ya?" I shout when I see Lucy appear.

"Jordan, nice to see ya mate! It's been awhile since last time."

"You good? I've bloody missed ya!"

"I'm just fine, and I've missed ya too!" Lucy says.

Me and Lucy are best buddies, I honestly don't know what I would've done without her by my side. During this first day of camp we haven't any activities planned, so everyone is allowed to do whatever they want. For awhile I've nearly forgotten about Dan, hanging out with Lucy is never boring, no matter how you feel.

The time passed away much faster than it usually does, it's already evening and time for Phil to reveal who shares room with who. I don't care who I'm rooming with, as long as Leah and I don't share. It would be pretty awkward to share room with her now when I've tried to avoid her for such a long time. When I hear my name together with Lucy's I let out a sigh of relief, maybe it wasn't that bad to go after all...

I still care about Leah, so hearing she's rooming with Keira makes me calm inside. I remember Leah has mentioned a few times that Keira is a close friend of hers, and that they've been friends for like forever. Leah has been with Keira for the whole day as well so I'm not worried at all. All I ask for now is that my soul won't betray me. As long as I can deal with my feelings when I'm around her for a couple of days I'll be just fine. Now that I'm here I need to be fully focused on football and nothing else. All other issues I can deal with when I'm back home, I tell myself.