lost love

this can't be real

Type was on his knees in front of tharn on the grass crying.
Tharn was standing before him, face to the side gritting his teeth, hands balled into fists.
"You....you....you said you'd never break up with me!" Type cried.
"Two men dating is disgusting. I don't.."
Tharn had to take a deep breathe.
Type looked up with his face over flowing with tears.
Then he got up to step towards tharn. He put his head on his chest.
Tharn shook his head.
"I...i... Thought you loved me."
"I..."
Tharn tried to not cry.
"I never loved you."
Type flinched then he pushed tharn.
Tharn looked to type who hung his head too whip his tears.
Tharn took a step forward but stood still.
"Never ever come near me again!"
"I hate you!"
Tharn then woke up shaking.
His eyes darted around the room.
Then he sat up putting his hands to his eyes rubbing them.
10 years ago he had to break the heart of the only person he had ever loved because of his father.
Tharn had to take deep breathes before he could get up.
Tharns father did not approve when he found out of the boys secret relationship. Who his father was tharn had to listen even though it broke him.
Since 16 tharn didn't feel anything.
He never loved again.
In the shower He let the warm water wash through him.
Why did i dream of the worst day of My life?
Taking a deep inhale he got out then went to get dressed.
Eating a small breakfest in the kitchen he had to go and meet his fiance that his father forced upon him before he died 5 months ago.
Tharn felt nothing for her.
She came from a respectable family. Tharn just went along with it.
Get married, work and have kids.
He had no passion, no drive and tharn did everything on auto.
Putting his dishes away he answered his phone has he walked out the door.
Mia: tharn are you almost here?
Tharn: leaving now.
Mia: your so lazy. See you soon. I love you.
Tharn signed.
Tharn: be there soon.
Then he hung up the phone.
He never said those words.
Going to his car he got in the driver's side. Buckling his seat belt he drove to the coffee shop.
Parking he went straight in to see mia waving with excitement.
Walking to her he sat down with no Emotion.
"Thank you for ordering for me."
She nodded.
"Okay so our wedding is next year for my mother's birthday. We need too."
Tharn leaned his body forward letting her go on about something he had no desire about.
Minutes past and a few men came in to stand to a table near them talking loudly. Tharn shook his head. He didn't like happy people when he was so miserable.
Taking sips of his coffee, listening half of what mia was talking about, reasons unknown his ears picked up to listen to there conversation.
Why do you care tharn?
"I can't believe your back from Germany! I can't believe you went there for 5 years."
Tharn put his coffee cup down.
"Mmm i needed to get away. Also they have a great art department there."
Tharns eyes brows furrowed. That voice sounded oddly familiar.
"Well just happy your back."
All 3 of his friends smiled brightly.
"We have to do something tonight for your return too Thailand. Maybe get you drunk and laid."
"Well there are cute guys here in Thailand. You work in the movie business get me a movie star." He laughed loudly taking a sip of his coffee slowly to wince.
The laugh made tharn freeze.
The past:
"Your art project type eeeeh you need more color."
Type looked to tharn.
"You have no right to judge my master piece, you are a book nerd."
Tharn smiled then he put his finger in a paint can.
Type watched questionally.
Then tharn put a little on his nose.
"Hey."
"See you need more color."
Narrowing his eyes type took some paint on his finger to get some on tharns cheek.
Then he gave a huge smile.
"Your always Gray you need color."
Then type gave a huge adorable laugh.
The two then got into a paint fight.
The present:
"tharn? Tharn? Are you okay?"
She was shaking his arm.
He looked to her.
"I'm fine. Just didn't sleep well."
Mia nodded a little in hesitant with that answer but took her hand back to prattle about the wedding.
Tharn Taking huge breathes felt like he was 16 again. He was getting droves of hidden emotions. Tharn leaned his head sideways to use his perhivoral vision to see them.
It was type. He was there. It was him.
Type looked happy, he was thinner, his hair was longer and he was still breath takenly handsome.
Tharns lips parted.
Type winced then took out a pill bottle.
Tharn looked at that suspically.
Was type taking drugs?
"Mmm how's your stomach?"
Type looked to his friend after popping a pill in his mouth then taking a swig of water.
"Mm fine. Been acting up since i got back a week ago. Don't know why frame."
He shrugged.
Then frame put his arm around type.
Tharn narrowed his eyes in anger. He almost got up but he looked forward gritting his teeth.
You have no right to be mad. Type deserves to be happy. Tharn couldn't help but ball his fists Under the table.
"Maybe tonight shouldn't happen."
Type shook his head.
"Being here i need to get drunk."
He laughed.
"What about your stomach?"
Type shrugged.
"Fluke i should be fine. However i need to use the bathroom before we go eat."
Then he playfully got out of frames embraced.
"Dont take too long. We're hungry."
Type then left to go to the bathroom.
Tharn sat there confused. Thoughts swirled in his head.
What was wrong with his stomach? Why did he go to Germany? Was he dating anyone? Why am i acting like this?
Tharn couldn't take it.
"Um, mia? I have to use the restroom. May i go"
Her eyes blinked rapidly. Tharn never asked before. He would usually just go.
"Um okay. Hurry back i want to go over the venues."
Tharn nodded getting up nervously.
You have no right to do this tharn.
Leave him be. He doesent deserve this.
Tharn though could not stop himself. It had been 10 years. Having type so near he couldn't leave him be.
Going into the bathroom he saw 3 stalls only one was closed. He stood right in front of the door.
Type was leaning to the stall wall his arms wrapped around his stomach.
Damn it! Why are you hurting like this?
Type had gotten his stomach ulcers under control he had no clue why they were hurting him.
Taking deep breathes his medication started to work.
Then his phone went off in his front pocket he rolled his eyes.
He Then answered the phone.
"Intouch ill be there in a minute."
"Well hurry were all hungry!!!"
Type laughed.
"Your not the only ones!!"
Keeping the phone to his ear he unlocked the door to open it then Type froze, his eyes opened wide and his lips parted. His whole body shivered.
Type then put the phone slightly down.
"T...tharn?" He asked hesitantly.
He nodded.
"Type?"
They both stood in the Bathroom glaring at each other in dis believe.