Will I Still Need You? (Part 1 in the Needing You series)

Chapter Fourteen

I was relieved. I wasn't pregnant. I was honestly terrified on what would happen if I DID turn out pregnant.

Not that I wouldn't be overjoyed. I loved children. But, I wasn't in the right state of mind to have a child. Just getting over depression, considering I could go into a relapse at any day.

I couldn't bring a baby into a environment where it's mother may kill herself at any day. And a father that is an abusive ass hole, or won't have much time for it.

The boys were getting a lot more popular. They had just gotten back from Hamburg, Germany and had gotten a manager named Brian Epstein. Brian was a very good manager and an amazing friend to me and the boys. Brian was my very best friend and we had even dated for a while.

Brian just wasn't alright with the relationship. He had discovered he was homosexual and just didn't feel right in the relationship. I completely understood and we remained best friends. In '67 Brian died. It was reported he killed himself, but it was later diagnosed as a drug overdose. I was shaken up.

Brian was the only one who knew what I had gone through John-wise. He understood and could relate. John was so cruel to Brian. He used Brian's homosexuality against him to get what he wanted. He had teased Brian on their lost weekend together.

Even now, I stop and think about Brain Epstein. I still truly love him. I always wonder what would have became of him if he hadn't died. But, I know, is that I will always love him.

So, back to the story. I walked back to where Cynthia was waiting, breathing out slowly. Cynthia looked up, smiling. "You have what you need, love," She asked. I nodded.

We went out to eat at a nice restaurant in Blackpool and road the bus back to Liverpool. By the time Cynthia got back to Richard and George's flat, it was 3:00 a.m. Cynthia grimaced when she saw the time.

"John's going to kill me," She whispered. I sighed and opened the door to Richard and George's flat, not knowing the living hell awaiting Cynthia and I.

I walked in, Cynthia not far behind me. I was met with a hard slap to my face. I saw John's red, angry face looking at me. "Where the hell were you," He roared at Cynthia and I. "Busy," I said. John pushed me up against the door.

I looked around. I remembered Richard and George were out with Paul at the Cavern. John moved dangerously close to me. "I'm going to tell you one time, Windy," John growled. "Stay away from me and my girlfriend."

I spat at John and he threw me to the ground. "You little bitch," John growled. "Cyn," John said calmly. "Go to the car, love."

"John-" Cynthia pleaded. "Cyn, go," I ordered calmly. "He'll hurt you," She cried. "Cynthia, get the hell out," John roared. Cynthia stayed still. "Cyn, please go," I pleaded quietly.

Cynthia nodded, tears streaming down her face. She turned away and walked through the door.

John smiled at me. "I'm sorry about that, I just had to get that bitch out of here!" I frowned. "John," I asked.

"Yes, my love," John asked concerned. "W-what's going on," I asked while he helped me up. John wrapped his arms around me. "Windy," He started. "From my time away from you, realized something."

I raised my eyebrow. "I need you Windy. I love everything about you. Your spunk, wit, and just you in general. I love you, baby," John said, placing a hand on my cheek. He leaned in, closing his eyes. I leaned in also and closed mine.

In seconds, I felt John's lips on mine, moving with them. I moved my lips with his, a whimper escaping my lips. John heard and wrapped his arms around my tiny body.

I could feel through this one kiss how much John loved me. I saw our life t ogether pass before my eyes. I saw the first time we met, our first date, our first kiss, the first time we made love.

And I knew I couldn't live withou t him, and I knew he couldn't live without me. And at that moment, I knew we would be alright. Because I still needed him. And he still needed me.

So, my darlings.That is the end of Will I Still Need You. I will write an epilogue, and I will write part two in the series. And guess what?! IT'S IN THE MAKING ATM!!! Exciting right?! The new part has sooooooooo much promise in it! And it will keep Windy and John in it! Try and guess who the next book will be about? It's somebody I haven't written about yet! It will also less depressing than this one... I will post the epilogue asap and will also post the first chapter of the new book! I'm so excited. I will reveal the name of the next book in the series!

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