My Time With You

21

After the weekend ended we went back home in Bangkok.

Ai Type improved so much in those two days.

He was so determined that he kept walking for hours.

And finally we can tell Khuan Fern about the improvement.

Not to mention that he now feels less tired then before.

So now we were back in my room at the shared house laying comfortably on my bed.

"Ai Type?" I asked.

"Hmmm" He said.

"Do you remember anything else?" I asked seriously.

"Still not sure" He said.

"What do you remember?" I asked.

"Seems like it...Was long ago...Then person I'm now" He said.

I sighed and pulled him to a sitting position.

"Tell me what you remember" I said.

"First meet...You and me...Wanted to help my parents" He said.

"Anything else?" I asked.

"I felt...Confused...Betrayed by parents...Selling me...Thought they selfish...Wanted to help them anyway" He said.

"So that's what you remember about your family?" I asked.

He sighed and shook his head.

"Remember good things too...Birthday day with whole family...Playing with brother and Khom at beach in Ko Tao...Time capsule" He said smiling wistfully.

I smiled and took his hand squeezing it in what I hoped was reassurance.

"It's good progress...It's great progress actually...You did well" I said smiling.

He smiled and nodded then hugged me.

"So...Ummm...What do you think about going to therapy?" I asked.

He went still for a second then sighed heavily.

"Don't know if it work" He said.

"Of course it will" I said.

"Tried before...Didn't work" He said.

"You can talk to me then...You can tell me anything...Tell me how you feel" I said.

"Nightmares...Almost every night...You always there to help me...Seeing you make me better...Memories and...My time with you...Make me happy...And strong...Enough to fight back...You always there for me...One nightmare you disappeared...Felt like dying...Please don't leave me alone" He said close to tears.

I sighed and shook my head then hugged him.

It still felt hard to believe that even after all this time he still had this doubt.

"I'll never leave...I promise" I said.

He only responded by hugging me.

He pulled away after what felt like minutes and smiled at me.

"I go to therapy...So I go to college...Sooner" He said.

"That's good to hear...You're strong...Remember that...You're safe here...With me and your family...I need you to come back to me again...I'll wait for you...Get better soon" I said kissing his forehead.

He smiled and nodded.

Then he tilted his head slightly and pecked my lips.

"What time is it?" He asked.

"Five...Why?" I asked confused.

"I go make lunch" He said standing up and leaving the room.

I smiled and stood up then went after him.