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Chapter 7

[Shawn's POV]

 I decided I need to tell Camila what I've been thinking for awhile: I'm in love with her. Not because she doesn't know it, I know she does, but because I need her to hear it out loud. This is the scariest thing to admit to myself because if I'm being honest I don't think I've ever been in love before. I feel like this is eating me inside, I need to tell her.

 We're sitting at the beach watching the sunset with Niall and Julia when I get up and take her hand so she follows me. She gets up and I take her away from where our friends are. She looks confused when I stop and take her face in both of my hands. This is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen: the colors from the sunset matching the gorgeous color of her eyes.

 " Shawn…" she says shyly, looking away from the intensity of my stare.

 " Mila, I love you. I'm in love you." That makes her look me in the eyes again. " I know it's been only three months since we've known each other but I can feel it in my bones. You're the one thing I was missing in my life. The one thing I didn't even know I was looking for. Maybe you think I'm crazy for saying this but it's true. I love everything about you. I love how you smile with your whole face when you're happy but I also love how you can't even pretend when something bothers you. I love the way you blush and act shy at the little things I say even though we both know you're not that innocent. I love how you insist on drinking coffee but can't even get halfway through a cup. I love the concentrated face you make when you're painting, it's like the world could fall apart right in front of you and you wouldn't even notice. I love how you can…" She stops me with a kiss before I can keep on saying all the things I love about her.

 I know she's tearing up because I can feel her tears in the kiss. When she pulls away she looks at me like I could disappear at any second.

 " I don't know what I did to deserve you." she says as our foreheads touch. " I love you too, Shawn. I'm completely in love with you. It's actually funny that you said something that's been on my mind since the day we met. Serendipity. It's when you find something good without looking for it."

 We stay quiet for a while just looking at each other and I swear this feels like magic. There's no way I'll ever be able to feel this for someone else. This is it. The type of love I've always seen in movies and heard in songs but never actually understood or thought it could be real.

 " Hey, lovebirds! Time to go home!" I hear Niall screaming.

 Camila starts laughing and gives me a kiss before pulling away. We walk hand in hand to where Niall and Julia are and they keep smirking at us like they heard something, but decide not to tease us any more than that.

 Julia and Camila come back to the apartment with us, which has become a normal thing to happen. Julia practically lives here and Camila is not that behind, she already has a bunch of her things in my room, just like I have in hers.

 As we get inside the apartment I can't help but look at the piano and remember the song I wrote for Camila. I still haven't played it for her, but after today I think this might be the perfect opportunity.
 
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[Camila's POV]

After eating the dinner Niall made for us, Shawn and I find ourselves alone in the living room. He takes a seat at the piano and asks me to sit next to him.

 " I wrote this song for you a couple of days ago. I wanted to play for you." He says, a little nervous.

 " Okay." I put my hand on his knee to assure him. " But I'm not responsible for my actions right now. I'm totally going to cry my eyes out no matter what the lyrics are." He laughs a little and kisses me before starting to play the first chords.

 "That first night we were standing at your door
  fumbling for your keys, then I kissed you
  ask me if I want to come inside
  'cause we didn't want to end the night
  then you took my hand, and I followed you…"

 I smile remembering our first date and how he payed attention to every little detail.

 "Yeah, I see us in black and white
  crystal clear on a star lit night
  in all your gorgeous colors
  I promise that I'll love you for the rest of my life
  see you standing in your dress
  swear in front of all our friends
  there'll never be another
  I promise that I'll love you for the rest of my life…"

 He looks up at me while singing it and I can feel exactly the same way he does.

 "Now, we're sitting here in your living room
  telling stories while we share a drink or two
  and there's a vision I've been holding in my mind
  we're 65 and you ask when did I first know? 
  I always knew…"

 I'm definitely crying at this point.

 "Yeah, I see us in black and white
  crystal clear on a star lit night
  in all your gorgeous colors
  I promise that I'll love you for the rest of my life
  see you standing in your dress
  swear in front of all our friends
  there'll never be another
  I promise that I'll love you for the rest of my life…"

 He looks me straight in the eyes to sing the next lyrics and I didn't think I was able to cry even more.

 "I want the world to witness
  when we finally say I do
  it's the way you love
  I gotta give it back to you
  I can't promise picket fences
  or sunny afternoons
  but, at night when I close my eyes…"

 This is the moment I know I'll marry him someday and I don't care if it's too soon to be sure about something like that. I just know it.

 "I see us in black and white
  crystal clear on a star lit night
  there'll never be another
  I promise that I'll love ya
  I see us in black and white
  crystal clear on a star lit night
  in all your gorgeous colors
  I promise that I'll love you for the rest of my life
  see you standing in your dress
  swear in front of all our friends
  there'll never be another
  I promise that I'll love you for the rest of my life
  there'll never be another
  I promise that I'll love you for the rest of my life."

 He takes a deep breath when he finishes the song. The only thing I can do is hug him and kiss him because that was the most beautiful and romantic thing someone has ever done for me.

 " I was going to ask if you liked it but I think I already got my answer." He says when we stop kissing.

 " Shawn, I don't even know what to say. That was beautiful in so many different ways." I say as he swipes the tears that are rolling down my face.

 " I don't need you to say anything. Just looking at your face and seeing your reaction is enough." He says smiling at me.

 Looking at his face I can't think of how my life was before we met. He changed my life in so many ways, I never thought I would be feeling the things I am. I thought what I had with Matt was love but if that was love I have no clue what this is.

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A/N: The song Shawn plays for Camila in this Chapter is the one I named the story after. Please listen to it if you haven't already, it's beautiful and for sure my favorite one from Niall's new album ❣