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Chapter 19

[Shawn's POV]

 I wake up to Rose crying and get up to get her before Camila hears it too, she's been super tired because Rose won't give us a break so I try my best to let her rest. As I walk into her light yellow bedroom she stops crying immediately, and when I take her in my arms she falls asleep again in a few minutes. Even though she keeps waking me up and I barely got any sleep in the last two months, I can't help but think she's the most precious thing in this world. I put her back in the crib but keep watching as she sleeps peacefully. A few minutes later I feel two arms wrap around my torso and a kiss on my back. I turn around to see Camila's beautiful face, I kiss her forehead as we keep watching our little Rose together.

 " Can you believe we made the most perfect baby ever?" She asks in a whisper so Rose won't wake up again. " She managed to get my favorite features from both of us, my nose and your eyes."

 " I love your nose but she would be just as perfect if she got your eyes." I say kissing her nose.

 We walk back to bed but I can't seem to get much sleep after that so the next morning I look like crap. Camila doesn't look much better but Rose on the other hand is still sleeping like an angel. She hands me a cup of coffee after I check on Rose and we sit together in the couch as I drink it and she eats an yogurt.

 " Julia is coming over today. She wants to see Rose and also said she wanted to talk to us." She says leaning her head on my shoulders.

 " What about Niall?" I ask taking a sip of my coffee.

 " I don't know, she didn't mention him so she's probably coming alone."

 Two hours later Rose wakes up and I change her diaper so Camila can breastfeed her. I love watching her with Rose, I think I'm falling in love with her all over again if that's even possible. She looks up at me as I watch them both and smiles at me.

 " Your weirdo, stop watching us." She says in a playful tone after Rose finishes and goes back to sleep in her arms.

 " I can't help, you're the two most gorgeous girls I've ever seen." I say sitting next to her and kissing her cheek.

 I take Rose's tiny hand in mine and she immediately opens her eyes and wraps her small fingers against one of mine. She does that all the time, which always makes Camila laugh because of the size difference. Later I cook something for us to eat at lunch and as soon as we're done eating my phone rings. I take the call and it's Andrew to update me on some things, I have a big interview tomorrow at Ellen because 'Nervous' just made top 20 at the billboard 100. I didn't want to leave Camila and Rose alone but she insisted that I needed to keep promoting the song. As I'm talking to Andrew the doorbell ring and I make my way to the door. It's Julia, so I hug her while still on the phone and mention for her to get in. She walks to the living room and when I end the call she's holding Rose while sitting in the couch, talking to Camila.

 " Hey, sorry, it was Andrew." I say sitting next to Camila.

 " It's okay. I didn't came to see you, I wanted to see my goddaughter." Julia says in cute voice while playing with Rose's hand. She insists on saying she is Rose's godmother because she was the one that set us up, even though both Camila and I are not religious and don't want to raise her with these titles. " God, she's such a cutie."

 " What did you want to talk to us about?" Camila asks curiously.

 " Humm...please don't freak out." She says looking at us. " Niall and I broke up."

 " What??" I asks shocked.

 " Why?" Camila asked worried.

 " I was asked to be in a play in New York. I can't not go, that means I'll be closer to one day being on Broadway. He knew that was my goal after college, so he's being very supportive of me going. We both agreed we didn't want a long distance relationship, it was a mutual decision." She says looking at Rose instead of us.

 " Wow. That's amazing but also kind of sad." Camila says looking at her.

 " When are you leaving?" I ask still in shock.

 " Next week." She says finally looking at us.

 " That's pretty soon." I say quietly. " I'm so happy you get to live your dreams but I'm going to miss you so much."

 " Awnnn, I'm going to miss you too, both of you." She says smiling.

 After Julia leaves I call Niall to know how he's feeling about of this, but he seems genuinely happy for her. They're still living in the same apartment, so I know they're really not lying about being okay with each other.

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[Camila's POV]

 Shawn leaves early the next day for his interview and I'm left alone with Rose, which I don't mind at all. I'm not going to lie, being a mother is an exhausting task, but I love every minute. Karen stops by at lunch time bringing us some food. She's an amazing grandmother but sometimes I remember how she was shocked at first when we told her I was pregnant.

 " Have you ever thought we're too young for this?" I ask as she holds Rose. " I mean, when we told you the first time."

 " I was a little surprised for sure, I wasn't expecting to be a grandma this soon. But just looking at you both I knew you were sure about this so the only thing I could do was support you guys." She says smiling at me. " Thank you so much for making my boy happy. I'm so grateful that he has you in his life and also our sweet Rose."

 When Karen is leaving I notice Rose is a little hot, so I ask her to drive us to the hospital. The doctor told us to take her there if she had anything, even if seemed something silly, since she was born premature. Karen stays there with me for awhile but she has to leave because of work. When the nurse calls us in she's even hotter than before and minutes later the doctor confirms she has a fever. He suspects it can be an infection so they run a few exams and as we wait the results I try to call Shawn but he won't answer, so I call Andrew.

 " Hey, Camila!" He answers in the second ring.

 " Hey, Andrew. Is Shawn still doing the interview?"

 " He's just finishing the last one. Is everything okay?" He asks in a worried tone of voice.

 " No, I'm with Rose in the hospital, she has a fever and they think it might be some kind of infection. Can you please ask him to come meet me once he's done with the interview?"

 " Yes, of course. I think he can be there in twenty minutes."

 The doctor comes back to tell me she really has an infection, but there was nothing we could have done about it, it's actually common for that to happen with premature babies. She'll have to stay in the hospital for a couple of days and even though the doctor just said we couldn't have prevented it, I still feel really bad about it. Shawn finally arrives and he's super worried before I can even explain anything to him. We end up spending three days in the hospital and when Rose is finally clear to go home I feel like I can breath again. That's when we realized that being a parent is being worried all the time. I got so scared about everything that I couldn't keep my eyes off her anymore. I didn't think anyone would come close to how important Shawn is to me, but I just realized she became as important to both us as we are to each other, and that's is definitely one of the most crazy things I've ever felt.

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A/N: This story is about to end, sorry about that 😶🙃
There will be one more chapter and an epilogue after that.