Weeks after our double date, wala na akong naging balita sa improvement ni kuya Noah at Cleo.
Weird.
Our house became more quiet. Madalang nalang ang uwi ni Papa. Si Mama naman kahit busy sa trabaho ay tinatry pa ring makauwi ng maaga para samahan ako mag dinner.
Naging subsob ako sa pag-aaral dahil malapit na ang exams. Mostly, I spent my time in the library, minsan naman ay sinasamahan ko sina Cleo and Pearl magshopping para hindi ako masyadong pressured sa school at sa bahay.
Gerardo is busy.
Hindi ko na sya ginugulo. Tuwing gabi at madaling araw nya lang ako natetext. Sinusundo naman nya ako minsan at hinahatid. He would also spoil me with food, gabi-gabing may nagdedeliver ng pizza, chicken wings at slurpee sa bahay. Cleo and Pearl noticed that my cheeks are getting fuller.
Kapag weekdays di kami nagkikita, kaya every weekend tinatry naming magkaroon man lang ng quality time.
Just like today.
Pababa ako ng hagdan ng matanggap ang text ni Juan na naghihintay na daw sya sa baba. I was wearing a cobalt blue tank top and jeans, dala ko rin ang back pack ko na may lamang extra clothes. Minsan kasi biglang nagdadala kahit saan si Juan. Last time, bumisita kami kina Lolo sa farm, that was epic! Meron pa na bigla nya akong inaya magbeach, badtrip pa sya noon dahil sumama sina Joe at Javi.
"Ready?" He asked me when I snuggled inside his arms. Ah! I'm home.
"Always." Mahina kong bulong.
Mama is not around. Maaga kasi syang umaalis kapag sabado, andami nyang appointment. Nakapagpaaalam na ako kagabi kaya in-update ko lang an sinundo na ako ni Juan.
Tumambay na naman kami sa bahay nila. Noong una nahihiya pa ako, pero parang naging pangalawang pamilya ko na sila and I really felt belong.
Wala sina Tito Bert and Tita Anna. Juan's younger siblings were both in school. Si Javi nasa kwarto lang daw. Joe was out, too. Ah!
We have our own peace now!
Ang gulo kasi nya, pero mabait.
We went to his bedroom to watch a movie. Well, I know what you're thinking.
Juan Gerardo respects me. We sometimes make out, pero doon lang yon. Kapag tumatambay naman ako sa kwarto nya nakabukas ang pinto.
Nanunuod kami ng isang young adult na movie sa Netflix. We were sitting on his sofa bed habang nakasandal ako sa dibdib nya.
Every time we're like this, it feels like I'm always complete. Walang iniisip na problema. Its just me and Juan. I sniff his scent that made him laugh. I felt him kiss my head, as he carefully played with my hair.
Hindi ko na natapos ang pinapanood, I just drifted to sleep while listening to Juan's heartbeat.
Pagkagising ko may kumot na nakabalot sa akin. The room was dim kahit bukas naman ang blinds. I realized it was pouring that's why I'm cold. Juan was also not around kaya nagtaka ako. The door was slightly open so I think he went downstairs.
I rolled on the sofa bed while waiting for him. Ilang sandali pa ay bumukas na ang pinto. Juan was holding two cups. Umuusok pa kaya napabangon ako.
"Hot chocolates para sa mahal ko." Aniya kaya napa-iling ako.
Inabot nya sa akin ang isang mug, saka ko dinala sa bibig.
"Its hot."
"Yeah and I need it. I'm cold."
"Am I not that hot for you?" Biro nya, kaya napa-angat ako ng tingin sa kanya.
Nakanguso pa sya habang nakadungaw sya sa akin. I just rolled my eyes and took a sip. Pero mabilis kong nalayo ng mapaso ang dila ko.
"Ouch. Ang init." Reklamo ko.
"Sabi kasi sayo." Kinuha nya ang basong hawak ko at nilagay sa may coffee table ang hot choco namin. Lumapit sya sa akin at naupo sa dati nyang pwesto.
"First aid kit." I stated para kumuha sya. But he stayed seated while wiping my lips, kahit wala namang dumi.
"First aid kit." Ulit ko.
But his next move made me froze. His lips touched mine. It was a warm kiss and I almost melt inside his arm. He held both of my cheeks as he deepen each dance of our lips.
The sound of the rain pouring and our lips touching feels like I'm in ecstasy.
Lalo pa ng bumaba ang kamay nya sa leeg ko. Tracing my warm skin.
Every time we kiss it felt like our first time. Excitement and pleasure spread inside me as he pushed his tongue in my mouth. My breathing quickened as I started to feel something poking on legs.
Damn! We're both lying on the sofa bed!!!
Ang braso ko ay nakasabit sa batok, like I am clinging my whole life to him. It was deliriously satisfying but...
Halos maubusan na ako ng hininga ng tumigil sya. Our foreheads are still touching, nakapikit pa rin sya na para bang kinakalma ang sarili. His warm breath fanned my face. I quietly adore him while he's trying to calm himself.
Ayokong tumungo kasi baka may makita akong di dapat makita.
God, is this my boyfriend in front of me?
Bakit ang wild?
Dahan-dahan nyang binuksan ang kanyang mata, and it directly gazed over me. It was full of mixed feelings. Hindi ko mabasa.
I touch his face and trace his ever so illegal jawline. Caution: nakakasugat.
"I love you." Bulong nya.
I smiled at him.
"I love you."
I love you so much.
