Mystic Messenger ~ oneshots 🤠

{13} 💕 Insecure - 707 💕

Trigger Warning: this chapter includes a panic attack so if that triggers you please skip this chapter, ily ❤️

You sit on your bed, staring at the same document you've had open for 40 minutes. What the fuck does this even mean? You'd been trying to do your schoolwork for an hour now but with your lack of motivation and logic you'd gotten nowhere with it.

Why the fuck can't I even do basic math? Am I that fucking stupid?

You slam the laptop shut and get up from your bed to stand in front of the full body mirror in your room. Frowning, as you look back at yourself and a tear falls down your cheek.

You quickly wipe it and stand to the sideways, looking at your body and squeezing your stomach. I'm gaining weight...

You'd been very on edge recently and everyone knew it, you were snappy, zoned out and could barely find the motivation to get out of bed in the morning.

You turn to look at yourself in the mirror again, pinching your cheeks and nose. Why do I look so disgusting? Why the fuck is Seven with me? You quickly start crying again, using your hoodie sleeve to try and wipe your tears away.

However you couldn't stop. The hatred you had for yourself was so overwhelming that it was building up and quickly becoming too much to handle, but you kept it inside anyway. Not wanting to burden anyone else with your problems, you kept them to yourself and focused on helping them.

If I make them happy then I'll be happy too, right?...

You spiral, the worst scenarios coming to mind when you thought about Seven and the RFA.

I'm just a replacement.

They don't actually like me.

They'll leave me soon.

They feel bad for me.

Sevens going to find someone new.

You struggle to breathe, clutching your chest as everything around you becomes dizzy. You can't seem to focus on anything and that made you feel sick. You sat on the floor, putting your head in your hands and crying into them.

There were so many thoughts spinning around your head yet you couldn't make sense out of any of them and that immediately sent into a state of panic.

God, I can't even control my emotions.

It was at this moment you heard someone open the door and walk into the room but you couldn't bring yourself to look up. You felt trapped. Like your joints were stuck together and you couldn't move.

"Y/N. Y/N listen to me, alright? It's Seven. You're okay. You're safe. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere." Suddenly you felt arms wrap around you as you tightly hugged him and cried into his shoulder, unable to physically stop yourself.

Seven rubbed your back and whispered to you, occasionally kissing your shoulder to try and calm you down. Despite having had frequent panic attacks himself in the past, he wasn't sure how to help you. He then grabbed one of your hands and put it up to his heart.

"Here baby, try and match my breathing okay, everything's okay, I'm here for you," you slowly opened your eyes and stared at Seven while you tried to match his breathing. Slowly, your heartbeat started to slow and your crying stopped.

You both sat there for a while, staring at eachother in silence as you felt Seven's heartbeat. It was weirdly calming.

He took your hand into his and pulled you into his lap, gently kissing your nose and letting you lean on his shoulder while wiping your tears with his hoodie sleeve.

"What's wrong baby? You can talk to me about anything," Seven whispers, kissing your ear and rubbing your shoulder to try and keep you calm. You sigh and start explaining.

"I just.... feel like I'm not good enough for you. I mean there's nothing special about me, it's not like I'm a genius hacker or a smart assistant like Jaehee. I'm not CEO of a company, or an actor and good looking like Zen. I'm just....me. I get so worked up over schoolwork and I don't even look good, I just-"

Seven cuts you off, grabbing your face and forcing you to look at him.

"Listen here Y/N, and you listen well because I won't just sit here and let you talk shit about yourself. You are the most important person in my life and you are more than deserving of everything you have and so much more. You are so much more than your body and an overworked student! You've helped me in so many more ways than you'll ever know and the RFA will always be here for you. I'll wait for you in a different dimension, okay? I love you so, so much. So don't put yourself down like that missy!"

You look back at him, tears threatening to pour back out of your eyes as you smile at his words. He always knows what to say to you to make you feel better, it was one of the things you loved about him.

You nod gently and lean towards him, stopping before your faces meet and laughing at him. Seven then grabs the back of your head, forcing you towards him and kisses you.

You smile into the kiss and fall onto your back as Seven pushes you backwards. He kisses you again before sitting up and booping you on the nose, making you laugh at his childish actions.

He then goes straight to your jawline, peppering kisses down it until he reaches your neck. He then continues to bite and suck at your neck, making sure to stain it with love bites, as if to prove his love for you.

Suddenly, he pulls you towards him by your hoodie and puts your face right in front of his,

"I'll show you just how beautiful you are"

--•Authors Notes•--

THANK YOU GUYS SM FOR
1K+ READS
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I didn't expect anyone to see this book so it really means a lot & thank you for all the votes and comments too, they're so funny and supportive so I appreciate it sm

I made this to help cheer me up since Seven is a big comfort character to me and writing it helped a lot so I hope maybe it helps you guys or you enjoyed reading it!

Also I was watching AHS Apocalypse while writing this so there may be a few mistakes since I was busy watching it at the same time 💀

I haven't left the house in so long so I'm hoping I can go for a walk at some point but I cba to get out of bed or do schoolwork most days so I'm not sure how likely that is 😙✌️

Anywho,,,
stay safe & look after yourselves
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