"SHE'S BACK."
Dalawang salita lang mula kay Chris ay halos mayanig na ang mundo ko.
I was just doing my daily routine, working my ass off as a project director at the biggest construction company in the region, when I recieved that call from Chris consisting of only two words. Two fucking words, but it managed to make my heart clench and unclench with the strings of feelings I don't know what to do of.
Ngayon pa, bakit ngayon pa? I already established and accepted the fact that she's gone. JC was never coming back. But now she is and I don't know what to do.
I gulped down the hard liquor. I felt that burning down my throat but it gave me no calmness. Mas lalo lang na naghuhuramentado ang puso at isipa ko.
Umaga pa lang ay umiinom na ako. I just thought that having a shot or two would calm my mind, but instead, it had gotten me into an emotional loop.
My phone beeped. Happy anniversary, hon! My heart clenched painfully when I read that message from Kira. Pumikit ako ng mariin at paulit-ulit na iniisip si Kira. Anniversary namin ngayon, I can't let myself think of other things. Kahit pa iyon ay walang iba kundi si JC mismo.
But I just can't help myself. When I closed my eyes, ang magandang mukha ni JC ang rumirehistro sa balintataw ko. Her beautiful face... Her expressive eyes, her cute nose, her pouty lips that I've been imagining kissing again.
I stopped myself from thinking. I can't possibly think of her. Parati ko na syang iniisip lagi, lalo na kapag si Kira ang kasama ko. Even in bed, I think of her beyond pleased face as I pound into Kira roughly, thinking it was JC I was making love to.
But today isn't just another day. First anniversary namin ni Kira. And although Kira was the only one who invested so much in the relationship, still, we are together. I need to respect that part.
Napabuntong-hininga na lang ako. But then I just had to catch a glimpse of that picture I kept inside my office, nasa kanang bahagi lang ng desk ko. I caught a glimpse of JC's lovely face.
Kinuha ko ang picture frame at tinitigan iyon ng mabuti. She looked so flawlessly beautiful my senses became flooded with only thoughts of her.
"How are you?" I whispered as I looked at her lovely face. I bet she looked ten times better now. Siguro ay mas lumusog ito. The curves that had me almost dying before must've been more defined now. I bet she looked radiant, sexier, even more beautiful. "Bakit ngayon pa?" I asked again. I tried to run my thumb along her cheek, the softness of her actual skin before would always leave me breathless with want.
Napahilig ako sa upuan. I fucking missed JC but I am with Kira now.
Hindi ko na rin naman matapos-tapos ang mga gagawin ko so I decided to just leave. I need to take a breath of fresh air or else I'll go insane. Isa pa, I need to visit the firm today, schedule ko kasi para sa araw na iyon ang bisitahin ang maliit na firm. I fished my car keys inside the drawer nang mapatingin ako sa maliit na pulang kahon sa pinakasulok na bahagi ng drawer. Absentmindedly, I opened it and it revealed the diamond ring I wanted to give to JC a year ago.
I examined the ring. It was beautiful. Sakto lang ang laki ng bato at may dalawang maliliit na dyamante sa magkabilang gilid nito. It was breathtakingly beautiful and it cost a lot of fortune. Noong binili ko iyon, hindi ko na pinansin ang presyo niyon. I just wanted JC to have it, but until now, hindi ko maibigay iyon sa kanya sa kadahilanang umalis na sya.
But she's back...
I don't know why but I took the ring with me.
DUMATING AKO sa firm ko bandang alas nuebe ng umaga. Aside from working in Prime Builders, may sarili din akong construction firm. Maliit lang iyon but I worked hard para maitayo iyon. It caters small time buildings like houses and small stores.
