The House Of The Alpha

Heat Wave

Chapter 10

Back in my room my body is still pumping with adrenaline from the fight or attempt of a fight with Lily and dealing with Leo. I didn't understand is the point of him stepping into my fight. He knows how that makes me look! I don't want to feel like a stepping stone again. I let out a scream in frustration flopping down on my bed.

Mom and dad want me to be part of the pack and then I have other people like Kate and Leo reminding me I'm only human. This sucks! Before I came back here I knew who I was and felt comfortable about myself. Now, I'm struggling with the peer pressure of my parents again. Why do I let them get to me? I know what I want. I want to be a single adult forging a part in the rule for myself. Not a lonely human in wolf pack who doesn't feel like I belong.

Okay, I need a new plan here. I will take part in mom's training and pack jobs. I need to start socializing with humans too. I need to go on to have fun or possibly go on dates. I'm not too keen to start any new relationship since I just got out of a two-year relationship with Ryan. Speaking of Ryan, I am missing sex or maybe lack of it. I'm not a horn dog, but last few days there has been a sexual need I need filling. I'm only surrounded by unmated males only a building over. Right now is looking more and more attempting to me. Fuck, I need to find my dildo. In the midst of all these boxes, I didn't know where it was. I hide it in a random bag, so Kate didn't see it when we were packing. Now, I didn't know where to start to find it. I guess to fill my sexual need and burn off this adrenaline pumping through me I need to unpack.

The bed is stripped of all Kate's extra blankets and threw to the door to be washed. I dig threw the boxes and found my old lavender comforter. I sheeted the bed and threw my white pillows on to the bed. I pulled out my tapestry with golden skies with pink, maroon, navy, and gold mountains covering most of the picture. I hang the tapestry above my bed, I hang a few of my favorite pictures from college I had made into canvass and hung them above my desk. I threw away the one I had with Sam. Didn't need that anymore. Part of me realizes how much I'm lacking feelings from a recent breakup. I guess the relationship came signet. I didn't have feelings left to dedicate to the relationship.

My breath falters trying to hang small floatings shelves above my desk. I filled up them with books and knit knacks I've collected. I pulled out all my clothes from the boxes. I had a love for clothes in the last few years and wonder how I'm going to find room in my tiny closet now. I laid out all my clothes on my bed. I pulled out the training clothes, outside clothing, jeans, and plain tees. No one around here cares too much about fashion trends or wardrobe. Mostly because shifting tear most wolves' clothes, so dedicating so much money to expensive clothes is pointless. All the clothes I pulled out and I put them away in the closest. I reorganize my closest with the current clothes I had been wearing. I broke down most of my boxes. I put my unused clothes into totes. I shoved the totes into the corner stacking them. I put a gray blanket over top and put small trinkets top to make it look like a small table.

I spotted the true treasure I had been looking for. I dive for the shoulder bag with my dildo in it. I pulled it out smirking mischievously at it. I pulled the blinds down and shut off the light. I flew under my covers depantsing from waste down. My sexual drive pulsing my core with juices. I shoved that dildo in me to hard not bothering taking it easy. I flip the switch on and moan in relief from the vibrating. Finally, the tension starting releasing out of me.

The next morning greeted with horrible cramps. I grab my stomach as my alarm blares at me from the desk. I hit the alarm and lean over feeling the heating pounding in my stomach. Okay, we can do this. It's just bad menstrual cramp coming early, I told myself. Thirty minutes later, I feel my head sweating as I'm carrying the paint supplies to the Care Center. Lissa and Jessie help me carried the supplies from the storage shed. Molly and Annabelle are at the care center already taping off around windows and doors.