- NCT ANGST -

Jaemin

this will be so long

"nana ssi...what do you want to be when you grow up?" a 10 years old you asked jaemin when you both were seating at the primary school bench

"probably an idol , why? you told me youre going to be idol too right? lets catch our dream together!" jaemin , 12 years old talking to you while smiling and patting your head

end flashback

now that you and jaemin already being accepted as trainees , you both were SM rookies. two of you have spent a lot of time together until now , you and him were accepted as a kpop group named NCT. you and him were placed in subunit called Nct Dream. there are 8 members in Nct dream

1. mark lee
2. hwang renjun
3. lee jeno
4. lee haechan
5. na jaemin
6. park y/n
7. zhong chenle
8. park jisung

you are the only girl in whole NCT.

"PARK Y/N !!! WHERE ARE YOU COME HERE AND PRACTICE YOU LIL GIRL" shouted jaemin as hes searching for you

"yah yah na jaemin whats wrong with you? it's not like im going anywhere" you say , rolling your eyes

"COME HERE YOU LIL BEAN" he drags you uh no i mean your hoodie

after a while practicing for your upcoming comeback which is Boom , you go to the couch and lie down until someone tickling you

"YAH STOP IT NA JAEMIN" you shout as you are trying to grab his hand but uh uh he was quick to catch you before you even grab him.

"hahahaha okay i'll stop. by the way , arent you hungry? me and jeno want to go out to buy some chinese foods. wanna join us?" he stated

"yeah lets go im hungry too"

"yes i know right you are always hungry from you were even 6 years old when we met"

"shut up nana" after then you and him and jeno too go out and came back after 45 minutes later

at the practice room , all of you are eating. you dont even realise how clumsy you are until lee jeno yes the smize boi wipe your cheek

"oppa , why?" you ask him with a curiosity

"you have rice on your face you know dat?" he giggles

it was at this moment jaemin knew , he fucked up. he looked with that jealous expression when you were looking at him 5 seconds ago. yeah youre so dumb you probably dont know he likes you ammarite?

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"who the hell? oh na jaemin why would he texts me when hes actually beside renjun and in front of me?" you questioning yourself in the bottom of your heart

oh nanana 💚

nana : y/n can we talk later? personally in your room? or mine?

y/n : yours?
seen 18:59

after that , you heading to jaemin's room. you knock his door

"come in" he says

"what do you want huh?" you asked him , pinching his face

"y/n , i like you" he confesses

a silence hits both of you

"you? jaemin? like me? y/n?" you furrowed with a "bitch are u even srs" face

"yes"

"but..i like j-"

"jeno?"

you nod.

"since when?" he asks as his tears are about to flowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ~

"2 years after our debut. 2018" you , the sassy bitch give a serious look

"b..but can u even give me the chance? ive liked you since we were in middle school" he holds your wrist when you are about to get up from his bed and exit from his hacker room.

"sorry , nana. i am sorry" you are out of his sight now.

"hey y/n , wanna play pubg together? we have others here , ask jaemin if he wants too?" jeno asks you out of nowhere. istg this guy is so mysterious. he uses black magic.

"no , thanks." you give a smile to him and then enter your own room. you lie down and staring at the ceilling. thinking about what he said just now. you feel guitly but you dont even have feelings for him. you see him only as an older brother who you could hangout and share problems with.

it's been two weeks now , you rarely talk to jaemin. it's awkward even all the members are discussing about this matter and here we go again jeno texts you ask if you could talk to him about whats bothering you. you go to jeno's room and tell whats happening.

"jaemin likes you? why would u reject him?"

"but i like you" sikeeee

jeno gasps , his jaw even drop.

"stop with that look jeno im srs"

"AWW I LIKE YOU TOO GDI MY CRUSH LIKES ME BACK IVE BEEN CRUSHING ON YOU SINCE YOU WERE EVEN A TRAINEE BLOODY HELL"

you giggle a lil bit causing him to laugh.

"but..dont u have any feelings on jaemin? he likes you tho"

you shook you head. "no"

im about to end this man whole carrier , i have to skip and make it shorter.

it's already 2 years since you started to date lee jeno , all the members were shocked at first but now it's a normal thing. jaemin still the same doesnt even look at you but thanks god he congratulated you. but i forgot to say that jaemin passed away , he was hit by a truck when he was about to across the road. that night he wanted to take some fresh air to destress his mind. his last sentence was

nana : hey uhm y/n i want to take fresh air so tell them if they ask where am i , also go spend time with jeno.

but unfortunately , the last messege didnt even delivered to you. he went to sleep even before he send them to you.

ngl i havent go to school for 2 months i guess all my grammar is slowly forgotten