call me optimistic,
or maybe hopeless is a better word.
but i am rare.
i'd like to think so.
i carry insights deep within my bones
that could keep a person up to sunrises they would normally sleep through,
i do laugh at my own jokes
(you decide whether that's a plus or a flaw
((it's a plus))
and when i dance, i float,
i hold the power to freeze time in all of its continuum
simply to move
and move without a care.
i mold words to my liking,
to what i need them to be.
i shape so much more than them through my writing,
and i don't ever plan on giving up this self-ascribed profession of potter.
i know a thousand little things about myself
that i have fallen in love with.
its stereotypical and maybe a bit unhealthy,
but i watch movies about idealistic love when i'm so sad words can't capture it
and i clean while listening to fall out boy when i'm stressed.
i jump from project to project,
i am a bit of a conspiracy theorist,
i am a sucker for gelato,
and i would rather keep you in my life if it benefits you even if it costs me a little bit of displeasure in my life. i would rather experience that than cast out somebody who might need a home for the night.
i have learned nothing can or will or should ever change that.
that is at the heart of who i am.
thank you,
i have learned there's no need to wait for someone to be fascinated by me,
i have my hands full with things to learn about myself,
and i wholeheartedly believe someone will come along one day and place their arms under mine, helping me carry the weight of it all,
however,
they will realize and affirm and uphold that i was doing fine in the first place.
i. have. so. much. to. offer.
so much to tell,
i will give you chills and break your heart and make you dance and pose questions and i plan on never entering someone's life without affecting it for the better.
that's a promise.
so if you have decided you have gotten everything there is to glean and learn and obtain and steal from me.
that is your choice.
politely yet assuredly,
i do think regret will choose to comment on that if you embrace that decision.
regardless,
i will keep on giving,
i will never stop letting myself be shaped,
and over time,
i will attract everyone i am meant to.
people do and will love me past you,
i am sure of it.
- with or without you.
YOU ARE READING
ruby
Poetrypoems about the next stage of my life, hopefully about new experiences but also about hanging onto something the heart has desperately longed for and isn't quite ready to give up
