British

The Crash.....💨💨

Lorenz you sit here mrs. Bush pointed. British you sit there she pointed at the bench across from him and Chris you go straight into that principals office.
I felt guilt come over me as Chris walked into the office with his head hung low. This felt like all my fault again. If I wouldn't have even met Chris his life would be going so much different right now. It's okay I mouthed to him as we finally made eye contact.

How could you British I heard Lorenz say my head snapped in his direction.  How could I what? I said

How could you just sit there and kiss Chris like that after I told you I didn't have sex with that girl she was on me and if anybody was raped in the situation it was definitely me.

Lorenz I told you before I don't know for sure whose lying. I don't know if you're lying to cover up or if she's lying. Right now I'm not even sure which one of you guys have more motive in the situation. So excuse me for just moving on from both of you by trying to find a little happiness elsewhere. You don't think I deserve to be happy after all of this I questioned

No I never said you didn't deserve to be happy British he said looking at me in my eye. I just want you to be happy with me like we used to be baby that's all I want. My life have been fucked up since you left. Do you hear me FUCKED UP! I can't bare forever without you. You know you were the only thing in my life that made sense other than football and basketball , and even my  has changed since you left. What do I neeed to do to get you back I love you? He said walking over the bench getting on his knees. I saw tears roll down his face.

I knew then that Lorenz was telling the truth. I'd only seen Lorenz cry once in his life and that was when he lost his grandmother. His grandmother was his world she practically raised him. He was truly a grandma's boy. That grief changed Lorenz life but I was there to support and love him through it all. He never cried unless he was hurt deeply so seeing him cry I knew then that Brittany was lying, but I also was more confused than ever. Now things were different I still loved Lorenz but now I love Chris too and I couldn't bare to hurt Chris again after all that I'd screwed up in his life.

Please he said tell me he said grabbing my hand. No Lorenz stop get up I can't do this right now, but it was too late the damage was done Chris came out of the office as Lorenz was still on his knees begging and crying for me to forgive him.

Really Chris asked!? So that's what we on he said to me furiously. Helll yea this is what we on Lorenz said grabbing my hand. Stop! I said pulling away from him. Lorenz please step into my office said the principal peeking his head out to see what the commotion was. Lorenz walked into the office just the same as Chris with his head hung low. Only I didn't mouth it was going to be okay because I knew it wasn't he started the fight so I knew he'd get the worst punishment.

Chris  brushed pass me trying to leave as if I didn't notice. Chrissss! Come here I said grabbing his arm.
No man stop her said jerking away from me. Look I'm not some little toy some game British I been genuine with you and this what you on out here with this goof ass nigga? I told you I loved you so you know how many times I've ever said that in my life to ANYBODY!

Chris looook can you be quiet for a second. You're tripping he cake over here tryin to explain how he didn't rape her and he wanted me to believe him and that he was sorry he loved me and all of that and I told him to stop because I couldn't do this. Chris I love you deeply and I just want to be real with you. I believe Lorenz didn't rape Brittany she's always popping up when situations like this occur in starting to think she's plotting on me or something.

So you actually believe him what's the proof. Well since I'm being honest it was the tears. Lorenz has only cried once in his adult life and that's when he felt the pain of loosing his grandmother. His life turned upside everything fell off with him it was all out of track. I'm just now realizing how off track he's been lately and the tears let me know he was telling the truth okay.

So what you going to do about that British I love you and if what you say is true than that boy loves you too but I'm not willing to share you. Do you hear me! I CANT, I WONT, and I SHOULDNT have to. You need to decide who it is you want in your life. I'm a man and we are both to old for the games I want to love you for real. Not just some for a night just in high school. I want to love you forever have you become my wife. My family already loves you and I'm serious about you. Everything I said to you at that restaurant was true.  Look I got to go he said leaning down kissing me. Avoid Lorenz before I really have to beat his ass for real. Already gotta explain to moms why I'm suspended for a day.

Look I'm really sorry okay I didn't even.....
Shhh it's good Brit. He leaned down and kissed my forehead take a day or two to clear your head and then let me know what you want to do okay. He hugged me tightly as if he'd never hug me again  and when he released he looked into my eyes and said I love you British. 

I love you to Chris a year fell down my face. THIS, THIS Moment, THIS feeling was something I'd never felt with anyone before. I'll call you I said as he turned and walked away.

Alright British you can go in now said Lorenz as he came out. They gave me 3-days but I guess that's what I get for starting trouble huh he laughed to himself. Look I want you to be happy British I do but I also need you to understand where I'm coming from. Can we maybe get together not on a date but just 30 mins of your time to discuss everything so you can genuinely understand. Look Lorenz I'll let you know ima think about everything you told me and I'll let you know what I decide to do okay? I walked into the principals office prepared to have the book thrown at me.

So I've already talked to Lorenz and Chris I see no reason to suspend you being that you were just trying to break up the fight. However you are the cause of these two young men tension. Whatever it is you have going on between the two needs to end. And I mean today do you understand me young lady?

Yes sir I said solemnly.

If another situation occurs between the two of them and your name is even mentioned you to will be suspended and you don't need that on your record. British you are a bright young lady with goals ambitions and college on her mind don't let two boys be the reason you fall short you understand me?

Yes sir I understand.

Alright you may go home for the rest of the day your parents will be notified of the situation ! Let's try and have a fresh and productive start tomorrow.

Thank you sir I said as I walked out thinking about what he said. Was loving them a distraction from the college ambitions that I had set for myself. I never even looked at it that way. In fact I hadn't even thought about college since the Brittany thing very first started. Chris was right I needed to take some time to think because we weren't kids anymore and it was time I start moving and acting like an adult I needed to see things into my future not at face value.

I sighed though thinking of the lecture I was about to hear when I got home. I walked to my car and got in. I turned on my music just trying to drown in my thoughts. Slowly a red light flashed and I slowly began to hit my brakes but they wouldn't stop.

OMGGG OMGGG MY BRAKES WONT WORK. I began panicking hitting the horn so that the people in front of me could know I didn't have brake control but they weren't listening to me. As my car crossed all I saw was a huge four wheel suv coming straight at me I hit the gas and swerved to the right hitting a tree and blacking out.......