I thought you loved me too ~Reddie~

Chapter 18

*Eddie*
So we were kissing i don't know why it's not like we made up, i forgave him or something i just saw him standing on that swing waiting for me and i wanted to kiss him even if i knew i was making a mistake for the moral reasons essentially :
• he didn't apologies or explained himself
• I was still mad so that was actually fooling him
• we were kissing in public where everyone could see us which was extremely dangerous
- no no no stop
- what you saw me and started kissing me i didn't do anything
- yeah but it was a mistake
- oh was it ?
- yeah but apparently i'm not the only one making them
- what's that supposed to mean
- what do you think it means
- i don't know you tell me you were the one who told me to come here to talk
- well actually it wasn't me
- what do you mean it wasn't you- he said i guess getting a little on edge
- Stan texted you not me
- and why would Stan text me ?
- because he thinks we need to talk and we do Richie
- oh do we ? I didn't think you were in the mood for talking
- ok what's with you today
- what's with me Eddie i figured i can't live without you or with you mad at me but you don't even seem to care like do you actually care about me or i'm something for you to take your nerve on because you got shit in your life
- well you're not perfect either for your information
- well i never said i was
- good because you aren't
- yeah you made that clear and i guess we're done here aren't we ?
- no, no we aren't you're not okay and i'm not okay and we do need to talk
- let's talk then what do you have to say
- why are you treating me like the bad guy here i'm not the one kissing another person behind the other's back
- actually you are all the time with your girlfriend
- yes because i have to but i love you Rich and that kiss with Jordan really hurt me
- but he kissed me i didn't kiss him okay ? I don't remember that much but Eddie I love you too and i could never do something like that to you okay don't you trust me
- of course i do it's just
- what ?
- I don't now Rich its just that is still your ex and maybe you still like him
- I don't
- and maybe you were overwhelmed with all the situation with me and you didn't wanna be alone
- i could never do that
- and i want to believe you i really do but-
- then do it believe me
- i don't know there's still something off about this
- then i'm gonna prove it to you but i'm not sure i'll still be there for you when you finally figured that out
- Richie wait-
*Richie*
I went to find Jordan something i should've done sooner i know i looked everywhere for him at the end i went to the bar we met. It was crazy how he was always there he must have felt pretty lonely and sad but now it wasn't the time to think about his sad and tragic life but how he made my life sad and tragic
- Jordan i yelled
He turned around and saw me
- oh hey Richie
- don't hey Richie me, start talking
- oh you mean ohh okay yeah sorry about that
- what is that supposed to mean
- i'm sorry i kissed you
- okay but why and why's that tweet
- oh yeah i missed you i was drunk and i heard you leaving that cheesy voicemail to Eddie about how you loved him and stuff so i guess i just got mad and done it without thinking okay but i'm sorry and i do regret that
- okay i think that's enough explanation, don't you agree Eddie
- what do you mean ?
- oh he wouldn't believe me so i brought him here and made him listen to the conversation with his own ears
- oh i'm sorry i messed up your guy's relationship
- don't worry it's all good now goodbye Jordan
- Richie hey wait
- what ? You got your proof i didn't do anything wrong and you didn't trusted me
- i'm sorry okay i
- save it Eddie really now i am the one hurt okay
- no Richie wait listen I'm really sorry i should've believed you right the way i know it it's just that i felt so insicure and i thought you wanted to be with someone better than me okay ? Someone easy to be with, someone who didn't have a fake girlfriend to hide that fact that he's gay
- and i get that but that is no excuse to treat me like garbage
- i know and that's why i'm apologizing i know that i've a shitty person and a shitty boyfriend if i've actually been your boyfriend but could you give a second chance to made up to prove that i'm a completely horrible person
- i know you aren't, you are like the best thing that has happened to me and i love you i know that maybe we should take a break or now i should be mad but i think life is too short to waste time on that and we should live the best way possible when we still can and maybe i'm going to regret this but-
- You won't- he interrupted me- i can't loose you again and I've been a fool not to trust you the first time but from now on i will blindly
- good because i am already missing your lips
- well you must be lucky because for me it's the same