A Being With Answers (Bill Cipher x reader)

Ocean Tides

Wendy's breathing is heavy in my ear and I can only think about how this must be bringing up a whole world for her that I bet she's tried to forget. 

Guilt then becomes overwhelming, but I know I have to stay focused. Bill would like nothing more than for me to lose my focus.

I try to shake the feeling of being watches off, but it does no good, I know he's always watching.

"(Y/n), what exactly are we going to do?"

I look back at Wendy, sweat glistens on her face and her brow is set in a harsh position. There's fear behind her eyes, though she masks it pretty well.

I give her honesty. "Wendy, I don't know." 

And I don't. I just try to focus on what's important- ending whatever Bill's impulses throw our way.

I think about that for a moment. Our way. I shake my head, thinking about how it shouldn't be "our way" in this situation, but just mine. 

Mindlessly I push branches out of my way, the sound of Wendy's and my own breathing being the only sounds I hear other than the scraping of our feet against the woodland floor. I think of how yet again I fucked up due to a lack of proper judgement and mistrust in the same being that screwed me over to begin with.

To begin with.

The phrase takes me over fast, before I even know it, and as my back collides with the hard ground I wonder if the thoughts now surrounding me are of my mind's own organic origin, or a sick twist of Bill's to slow me down.

My vision begins to tunnel and sharp noise rings in my ears. Wendy's voice is calling me, and mentally I curse myself for getting myself into this position. I know if I give in to the collapse the entire experience would go much faster, and I would be back on my way to setting things right.

So, I don't. I imagine waves lapping over my toes, just as the fear filling my body feels. The waves swallow me up whole, and I close my eyes, letting the seafoam take me, and when I open them again and let out a new breath, I am in Piedmont California, and so is Bill Cipher.