Deceive me, Love (Buenavista Series #1)

Chapter 29

Chapter 29
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"No," he answered with great conviction.

Humakbang ako paatras ng dalawang beses palayo sa kanya. Tinaasan niya ako ng kilay na animo'y malaking kasalan 'yon. And firstly, why did I even say friends with benefits with him? Natatangahan ako sarili ko! At imbis a mabawi ko sana, mas lumala pa! Of course, I have to act disappointed to make it seem believable.

Tutal 'andito na ako, panindigan ko na lang.

"No?" dismaydo akong natawa. "Hearing you refuse is different when I am sane. Mas bumabaon. If you refuse, then can you bring me to the nearest wharf? Uuwi-"

He gave out a hard mocking laugh. Natigilan ako sa pag-iinarte. Pagod niyang binasa ang labi na para bang nahihirapan siya ng husto.

Curious, my brows furrowed.

"You're killing me, Saint," he sarcastically laughed.

Naalala ko namang umatras ako kanina papalayo pero ba't hawak-hawak na niya ang baywang ko ngayon? It's either he's fucking fast, or I'm fucking inattentive with his moves. We stayed in this position for quite a while.

He then sighed violently.

"Hindi kita naiintindihan. Kanina, ang sabi mo, takot at 'di alam kung ano ang opinyon ko sa relasyon natin. Tapos ngayon, gusto mong magkaibigan muna tayo, Saint? What do you even mean with that?"

"Not just friends. Friends... with benefits." I groaned. "Nevermind. Ayaw mo naman kaya h'wag na nating pag-usapan pa,"

"What's the purpose of the friendship then? For me, if the benefits are attached, it's not just friendship we have. I'd be loyal regardless-"

Umikot ang mga mata ko. Doon, natigilan siya na tila naisulto ko ng husto. "Loyal, my ass. You're a Villaverde and a rake to become submissive to anyone."

S'ya na ang humiwalay sa paghawak ng baywang ko. Sa wakas, naibalik ang agwat sa pagitan namin. Bago pa niya madipensahan ang sarili, walang pag-aalinlangan akong tumalikod. Mapangahas kong tinakbo ang dinaanan namin kanina, na kahit madilim, hindi ko na inalintana basta makaalis lang.

"Sainthia!" he frustratedly called me.

Wala pang isang minuto, huminto ako sa walang katuturang pagtakbo. I don't remember coming across a stream earlier, and that is what I am currently seeing. This is a wrong way!

Naliligaw ako. Dammit.

"Saint," he said, catching his breaths.

Niyukom ko ang kamao bago siya nilingon. Pasalamat ako sa dilim ng paligid na hindi niya makikita ang totoo kong nararamdaman ngayon. The truth is, I am afraid of the possibility of a real relationship with him. And this fear is brimming on my head.

"Saint, that's not even the right direction. Ano'ng gagawin mo r'yan sa sapa?" mahinanon niyang sinabi.

I was about to open my mouth when he preceded to talk first.

"Fine,"

"Huh?"

Alam n'ya kaagad na tatakbo ulit ako kaya minadali akong hinigit sa palapulsuhan para hindi makapalag. Hinigpitan niya ang hawak na imposible na sa akong magpumiglas pa.

He defeatedly sighed. "Fine. I'll take whatever you can give me for now. Let's do the damn friends with benefits,"

With his husky tone of voice, I felt my heart sink to the floor out of excitement. I laughed without any humor.

Tunog napipilitan lang?

"You sound as if I have a gun pointed at your head for you to agree," kinagat ko ang ibabang labi. "Nevermind... If you're just half-hearted doing this, then we should stop right here and then. Ang hirap naman kung napipilitan ka lang?"